Your sense of self worth is at the birth of your new consciousness. Nonetheless, the best dressed Still look ugly When they are a mess; And the messiest of the bunch Can still clean up When taken out to lunch.
Don’t go to church. Never besmirch. Label a king as a king And a peasant As a man who has no plan.
Ruling over all, The king builds his own mountain Down which to fall. What goes up Must be in the eye of the sky.
The moonlit days Under the sun’s complicit rays Leave no mainstay. Soon, darkness is but a shade of grey.
The simplest of men Are caught in the playpen of following the crowd, Playing the already written chorus, Silently allowing mediocrity to bore us, out loud!
These people do not like me, because I do what the boss would want done when the boss is not around!
The Bullshit I Put Up With
I do what the boss would want done when the boss is not around. That is why coworkers do not like me. I am a guy who, “pulls the wooden shoe out of the cogs of the gear.”
The Lazy Racetracker
Nobody wants the boss or the boss’s son around all the time; and the Lazy Racetracker wants a promotion for doing nothing.
“…those falsehoods being society’s conditioning of humans to be polite and to pay taxes and to follow certain laws and customs, how we view our interdependencies with our physical environment, along with our political and social assimilations.”
So the people who define “sanity” are the most introverted and insane of the bunch- insane because they think that their town is secure
Which training method did Jonathan Sheppard employ?
When somebody complained how Jonathan Sheppard would never explain his training program to them, this was my response:
Well, some of us understood his training program which was essentially reverse-engineered in congruency with the horse’s running date, its condition, the competition it would be up against, along with the expectations of its upcoming performance while always keeping the race AFTER that performance in mind.
What is the beginning? Where is that end? Who seeks a question? How tell an answer. When middle is, “middle,” “now, middle,” is middle, now!
You would think that to love the Lord, God, our creator, would be inherent,… a, “given,” … just an understood fact of life! Who wouldn’t love the one who created everything? That’s easy! … Right? Ahh,…but many do not believe they were created. They do not believe that there is a being to express gratitude towards! They do not believe in God. They believe that randomness and luck are the primordial conditions which have initially catalyzed life!
If randomness and luck were the beginning, (the only, two ingredients which formed the zygote of all of which has ever been,) how is it not random and lucky that there is a God, who, himself, was created by that randomness and luck, thereafter, such God created order and predictability, … the world?
“… was there any other stable gate at Belmont Park? Like a stanky snatch in the early 1970’s, that entrance was hairy with the trampling traffic of people of all smells, colors, diseases, sneezes, farts and coughs. Out, queeffed the same bunch, in exacting fashion, …”
Belmont Park Stable Gate Entrance
From a journal entry 19 years ago:
His house was so close to Belmont Park, at 3:00 in the morning, the noise of the tractors maintaining the training track would wake us up; and we’d look out the window to see them on the track! Being New York, that stone’s-throw distance was a short, 7 minute nightmare of a drive to the crotch of that racetrack- which was the main stable gate. … was there any other stable gate at Belmont Park? Like a stanky snatch in the early 1970’s, that entrance was hairy with the trampling traffic of people of all smells, colors, diseases, sneezes, farts and coughs. Out, queeffed the same bunch, in exacting fashion, regarding all natural senses. Indeed, the throw of a stone separated a patch of paradise from one of the stankiest snatches which the streets of New York had to offer! ‘Twas a good life, though! Young, vibrant,… all those things!
“…The most taxing act of any relationship is when somebody speaks the unabashed truth!”
The Santa Clause Conspiracy
Teaching Our Children to Lie & How To Grow Up To Become Stupid :
From Santa Clause to the Easter Bunny to the Tooth Fairy, our parents told us Lies while we were children.
After that, we are expected to teach those same lies to the next generation of children when we become adults.
Society indoctrinates us to believe lies, then, after seeing the truth, to perpetuate those lies, thus, engraining into society that lying is good and correct and done for good reason. Therefore, doing what is wrong is expected of us; and being truthful is not accepted in society but, rather, shunned.
If, “The shoe is on the other foot,” than nothing has changed; because you started off one foot, shoe-less, and you end-up with the other foot, shoe-less!
Picked up my check, Leave work. Stop at gas station. Battery Dead. Don’t have enough cash for a new battery. Battery is $121.00. I have $42.00 on one debit card. $72.50 on my other debit card. Hmmm,… … Paycheck = $260.00 Get a Jumpstart. I payed a gas station $20.00 to cash my check, because I had a whopping 114.00 available funds. -(Step number, “Fuck!”) Take battery out. Purchase new fucker. Install new fucker. As I am installing the thing that holds it down- (You know the long bolt with a U on the end), I think, “Maybe, I should put the key in and see if it works before I tighten this down.” I had faith. Crank it! Put key in ignition. NOTHING. Repeat step number, Fuck! Bring Dead New Battery back in. Get another one. I suggested counter-testing it. DEAD. Third battery was a charm. Being a man is fun.
How do we re-learn those things which our grandparents had never been taught?
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“…there are fewer and fewer students of the game anymore.
Journeyman’s Journal
October 21, 2025
…And the People Went Insane!
The difference between the world today and the world we grow up in is not definable. We cannot put our finger on what is different or why; but we all know that collective consciousness has changed.
It is not a shift!
Do not call it a, “shift,” because the road and also the vehicle are all different animals, today, altogether!
Emotions are indicators for regulation, not controllers of action.
Emotional Regulation:
Anger = Multiple Feelings:
Sad
Fear
Guilt
Show Up At Peace With Ourselves.
Recognize the emotion.
Evaluate the body.
Reevaluate the thoughts.
Make Physical adjustment to process your emotions; to be at (inner) peace BREATHE deeply and controlled.
Anger Exists From Perception.
Develop the qualities of a peace maker:
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Emotional Maturity = Acceptance.
Flexible Thinking:
Growing Emotionally Mature Is A Process.
Start with the physical body before you may calm down.
Focus on breathing and muscular tension.
Emotions are indicators for regulation, not controllers of action.
Find your anchors
When you are experiencing the painful emotions of grief, one way to cope is to find an anchor to ground yourself. This can be as simple as focusing on your breathing and slowing it down slightly. Or bringing your awareness to something external in your environment—this could be the tea cup in front of you or a tree in the garden—and then describing to yourself all the details of that scene: what you see, what you hear, the colors, the textures, etc.
“Can you watch my cart while I go to the bathroom?”
I’m standing on line at Walmart, and some woman comes up behind me aggressively and stops short with her shopping cart, astonished to see me standing on line, stands there for an impatient minute, then walks away from her cart to look at something on a shelf. I look in her cart, and all she had in it were about 46 boxes of Zantac!!’ She comes back and flips open her phone and says shit in some chaotic language (I have no idea what it is,) then walks away again. She comes back and paces, then acts like she’s going to squeeze by me, but stops and asks me, “Can you watch my cart while I go to the bathroom?” I looked down at the cart, then back at her and said, “No, I cannot. I’m sorry.” Mucho Zantac
The nerves are out on the fringe. When you’re living out there, On them, You seemingly transcend To the Other Side. And while out on the fringe, Lost Is the coronation Deep within, Which has collected And self-learns to evolve Every second of every day, Therefore melting Seamlessly into one moment, Instead of days, Or hours or weeks. But the fly Who’s lifespan is but three days Would not see life in this way. The fly has not enough time To conceptualize As we humans Contrive. Still, in three days time, A fly lives a full, natural life. You ever wonder if a fly ever gets bored? You ever hear someone say, “If I was a fly,…” ?
In three days time, They would not conceptualize, “Time flies.” For flies, The prize lies In the spark of the dog’s eye, when he hears His food hit the bowl, And his tail wags Because it’s dinner time.
It’s all over, But I don’t want,… “it.” She keeps looking over at me, Yet the instance Does not seem to Truly taunt me. Beauty-struck eyes, Perfectly dropped-cut shirt With lace. I’m sitting here With no intention; Her whole life Encumbered by gawking men’s stares, And all I can really laugh To say is, “Congratulations About your face.”
I love how people call them, “Leaders”! Grab your collar and leash, populous, and paw at the door to have a politician take you all for a walk! More pitiful than a man tethered to a canine whilst it poops is the common man, paying the more fortunate to steal from him!
Debating words Are as contrite as spite. You bark Smart as a dog. Your toothless battle Gums up the fight. Your laws Are the claws That scratch and tear. The flaws Of your balls Snatch the cradle bare. Sometimes, when you look Nobody is there. You do not like people to stare. Realize that everybody Is running around in their underwear!
3. How is is Righteous Anger different from Every-day Anger?
4. How do we apply Righteous Anger Usefully?
5. How does Righteous Anger destroy lives?
6. Why is it necessary to regulate or subdue Righteous Anger?
7. What is the end-result of regulating Righteous Anger?
Introduction:
When always being a nice guy and always being the better person by, “killing them with kindness,” we tend to experience certain frustration in the actions of people around us. The saying, “Nice guys always finish last,” is biblically true; and there is a reason why the nicest people in this world tend to experience poverty whilst the most selfish people tend to be wealthy. How can we reverse this reality? Always being the Nice Guy, how can we stop people from taking advantage of us; and how can we convert our kindness into financial stability? Let us explore!
What is Righteous Anger?
The only way to understand Righteous Anger is, first, to understand how it is different from everyday anger. Anger is a natural respionse. It is an emotion. Every emotion compells some sort of physical act, or prevalance. For example: true love is described as putting somebody else before you. To die so that your loved one may live is the ultimate display of love. After all, if a man died for someone whom he had never met, would you say that he acted out of pure love? A Marine who dies for his country- he Loved his country more than he loved himself!
Another example is fear. When a we are frightened, (an emotion,) we physically act upon that fear as the result of our nervous system causing our muscles to tense and for us to either jump and/or for our heart rate to increase. Such a response to emotion is completely out of our immediate control! However, by being exposed to the same frightening situation, you can, over time, train your mind and body to be desensitized to the frightening stimulus; and stimuli, such as bombs exploding around you and bullets wizzing by your ear will soon no longer cause you to jump or be nervous; and your heart rate will naturally find its level even in intense situations! If we can regulate our responses to our emotion of fear, we can also regulate our responses to the other emotions as well!
Another example is: when a man loves a woman, that emotion propels him to buy her flowers and candy and to sacrifice his own cravings and desires in order to show her how much he loves her. This is Not regulating emotion, but a display of being controlled by emotion. Furthermore, when a man learns that the woman he loves does not love him back, he may regulate that emotion by ceasing to buy her flowers and by delving back in to his own cravings and desires- acting for himself- as opposed to acting selflessly in the light of love. This regulation is an emotional barrier which protects a man’s thought processes. It works both ways. All that being recognized, regulating emotion is the key to success in any given situation in life- personally, financially and spiritually.
So, how does that all describe Righteous Anger? Simply put: Righteous Anger is not a quick-twitch response to a situation. It is a well-thought-out- time proven understanding. Righteous Anger is the discernment that people are doing wrong to you or around you. Righteous Anger is the recognition that people are not following the direction given to them by God, but doing the opposite! (Whether they know that or not is a topic of a different book, altogether, but the New Testament covers that topic in depth. The purpose of this treatise is to cover a small, small part of The Problem.)
Why do we Experiences Righteous Anger?
Simply put, we experience Righteous Anger out of frustration! We are frustrated that the people around us will not, “fall in line!” We are righteously angry, because we all know the difference between good and evil, but we do not always employ that understanding as the deciding factor of our actions. You can even experience Righteous Anger at your own self- you can be angry at yourself for doing stupid shit, thinking in an unprofitable way or by acting-out against your own interests- such as commuting road rage! This is why understanding and exercising Righteous Anger is so important- if not amongst your fellow man, but, more importantly, against yourself. After all, if you do not forgive yourself, how could you expect your Maker to forgive you? !!!
How is is Righteous Anger different from Every-day Anger?
That brings us to the next section: how is Righteous Anger different from everyday anger? Obviously, if you become angry with yourself, that is the ultimate display of Righteous Anger! You are reflecting upon what is good and right; and you, therefore, have made a judgement against yourself that you need to correct that thought process. You convict yourself of your sins. Alas, God had already convicted you of that sin before you ever realized it! Righteous Anger may bring you to this realization. This realization is one of the supporting columns of your faith! Once you realize that you have sinned and continue in that sin, you have the opportunity to correct thoughts and actions.
When Jesus was breathing his last breaths on the cross, he said, “Forgive them, for they know not what they do!” His words- the mixture of true love with forgiveness may seem to be removed from what Righteous Anger is; however, it was only through Righteous Anger that Jesus had realized their sins and, also, how Jesus, within Himself, understood that He needed to show compassion to everybody- even those who were in the present act of murdering Him! (Using the word, “present,” in that sentence is no mistake! Jesus’s death was a present, a gift, to us! Again, that is a topic of a different book; so let us not get off topic!)
How do we apply Righteous Anger Usefully?
In that example, I described to you how Righteous Anger differs from every day anger, for, if Jesus was filled with every day anger, instead of proclaiming that his murderers should be forgiven, Jesus would have said, “Lord, take revenge on these sinful, murderous people! Lord, take revenge in My name!” Jesus did NOT say that! He said the opposite. In an instant of road rage, you can display one of your fingers ever-so prominently in order to convey your message to your trespassers and (also) to feed your own ego-within! That is an example of every day anger. Or …. You can take a moment to exercise compassion for your trespasser and entertain thoughts such as, “That person must be having a bad day, and they need to take it out on somebody. Here I am, and I was their punching bag. I forgive them for abusing me; and, furthermore, I thank God for being blessed by being available for them to express their anger without harming anybody else!” THAT, my Brothers and Sisters, an example of Righteous Anger! You may be angry at your transgressor, righteously; however, a true Warrior of The Word fights that battle on a higher level than His oppressors by being an example of the Light- making everybody else who saw the transgression witnesses of His Light!
How does Righteous Anger destroy lives?
Pride. A person who understands and employs Righteousness Anger is susceptible to being proud, or of thinking that they are better than those around them! This is the ultimate trap set by Righteous Anger- thinking you are better than your fellow man. Be careful to regulate the emotions you feel as the result of your Righteous Anger, because your emotions ALWAYS cause physical action- whether you are aware of it or not. Pride, one of the seven deadly sins, is the most contemptuous, the most invisible and the most difficult to regulate. When a person, or a nation of people, walk around thinking as though and acting like they, alone, are God’s chosen people- that the rest of the people of this world are not God’s children, …. that is such a poisonous, poisonous perception- a non-inclusive culture for which no final solution could ever be reached!
Why is it necessary to regulate or subdue Righteous Anger?
The last paragraph answers why it is necessary to regulate and to subdue our Righteous Anger. Sometimes, people are not ready to experience our Righteous Anger- not spiritually, not emotionally/mentally and, many times, not historically! Jesus is the perfect example of how people are not always prepared to experience our Righteous Anger! After all, when Jesus exercised his Righteous Anger on the people of Jerusalem, they did not accept it with grace; rather, they Crucified him! Were those people not ready for his Righteous Anger? Or is the opposite true? …. Were those who condemned Jesus so, so prepared for His Righteous Anger that they hated themselves so mush that they had to rid of that catalyst which was turning their hearts of stone into the heart of love? Those who acted against the wishes of Pontius Pilate were so filled with every day anger within themselves that, outside of themselves- reigned an anger which they deemed to be, “Righteous”! The end result of that is that they killed their own king- their own God, the Son of Man! After which, “they were cut to the heart!” In NOT regulating their Righteous Anger, (or an anger which they had confused as being Righteous,” the result was an insurmountable loss!
What is the end-result of regulating Righteous Anger?
Similarly, such as in a road rage incident: Yes, the person who cut-you-off may be doing the work of Lucifer; however, if you regulate your response to your anger, (though righteously founded,) the result is always Life for you. If you choose to entertain their trespass with your own trespass in the guise of Righteous Anger, the result may very well be Death! That is why it is necessary to regulate your Righteous Anger!
The world has rejected you. That is not your fault!
Why Not Just Pray Directly To God?
One reason we pray in Jesus Christ’s name is because Jesus was human. We are human. If we remove being human from our prayers, we pray to God using Godliness, not humanity. Are we gods or are we humans? Can we think the thoughts of God, or can we only think the thoughts of man?
Why Pray In Jesus’s Name?
When we pray in Jesus’s name, we pray to God for humanity, not for Godliness. Why is this important? Because we could NEVER know the thoughts of God- we can only know the thoughts of men. To attempt to communicate with God (using) the same language with which God communicates with the universe would be to set us on the same level as God! If people contend that they, (or their minds,) are equal to God’s, they lack humility. That would be like saying, “Words which proceed from my lips can create life!” (as in GENESIS 1:3 and in JOHN 1:1)
How Could People Who Are So Right Be So Wrong?
God’s word is the law as man’s thoughts are policy. The fallacy is that the policy which the secular, (and, “spiritual,”) world applies to prayer is NOT God’s law! Policy is NOT law. Law trumps policy!
God’s law is far from man’s thoughts. Man’s thoughts are but policies: (and, considering the content of most men’s thoughts, we may appropriately call man’s thoughts, “butt policies!”).
In applying Jesus to prayer, we are human beings- praying to God, asking God. In removing Jesus’s name from prayer, we assume to be gods- praying to God, using God’s language!
Therefore, evoking Jesus Christ in prayer, we Humbly reach-out to the universe, asking God what to do. When we omit Jesus Christ from prayer, we assume to be supernatural beings- arrogantly meditating on the universe, telling God what to do!
So, What’s the Secret?
Praying with Jesus Christ, we ask to know the secrets of the universe, therefore, receive them.
I proclaim that Jesus Loves you! That is no secret. God made you; that is no mistake. The world has rejected you. That is not your fault! You seek guidance and love; that is your strength!
“Now this is eternal life: that they know you, the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom you have sent.”
JOHN 17:3
Dakkuan’s Notes:
Stillness
Ninja Scroll
Securing stillness of the in-breath builds strength. Securing humble restraint of the out-breath builds character. Not knowing allows purity.
Chip Van Hassel
Stretching is very, very important, because, not only does it help to prevent you from injury, but it also conditions and readys the muscles for exertion, growth and physical trauma. Stretching After strenuous activity not only strengthens and conditions the muscles further, but stretching lessens your body’s recovery time. … One of the Key proponents to getting and staying fit is understanding and utilizing your body’s recovery time (mental recovery time is something to explore when more advanced methods and exercises are introduced). After all, recovery time is what we Live for… (explanation- we don’t workout just for the act of working out. We do it so we feel good for the duration of the time when we are not working out.) In other words: any time you are not working out is “recovery time”. The amount of recovery time you take always determines your body’s needs in conjunction with your physical self expectations. Wake it, Breath it, Eat it, Sleep it, Live it; Be It!
“…my people are destroyed from lack of knowledge. Because you have rejected knowledge, I also reject you as my priests; because you have ignored the law of your God. I will also ignore your children.”
HOSEA 4:6
“You are permitted to understand the secretes of the Kingdom of God.”
LUKE 8:10
“But it was to us that God revealed these things by his Spirit. For his Spirit searches out everything and shows us God’s deep secrets.”
1 CORINTHIANS 2:10
“This message was kept secret for centuries and generations past, but now it has been revealed to God’s people. For God wanted them to know that the riches and glory of Christ are for you Gentiles, too. And this is the secret: Christ lives in you. This gives you assurance of sharing his glory.”
COLOSSIANS 1:26-27
“The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.”
John 10:10
“In the desert the whole community grumbled against Moses and Aaron. The Israelites said to them, “If only we had died by the Lord’s hand in Egypt! There we sat around pots of meat and ate all the food we wanted, but you have bought us out into this desert to starve this entire assembly to death.”
EXODUS 16:1-2
“So Christ has truly set us free. Now make sure that you stay free, and don’t get tied up again in slavery to the law.”
GALATIANS 5:1
“And God raised us up with Christ and seated us with him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus.”
EPHESIANS 2:6
“It is the glory of God to conceal a matter, but the glory of kings is to search out a matter.”
“That Woman, Doug, she is gone. She left today. Off to presque isle, far, far (thank God,) away!”
You know, Doug,
I feel alone in the following light:
I view the world to be in an utter and urgent need for spiritual revitalization, regrowth and an acutely vast, maelstromistic change in people’s thought patterns, (firstly,) the way people revere each other. That would institute an abrupt change which only fosters deliberate change in the attitudes and expectations which people approach each other with.
I feel alone in this, because I sense the need for an urgent adoption of the above stated notion; but my experience dictates that few people feel this urgency as tremendously as I do.
I feel it and am compelled by it in this exact moment; also, every breathing moment of my hours and days and weeks and months and years; now, decades.
I know you, Doug, share the same wisdom, frustration, hope, fear and humility as I do in the above stated matter; because your heart speaks it to me as your heart speaks it to every person you cross paths with.
I am constantly, brutally abused and taunted by the angst which compels this urgent need for physical and spiritual change in the men around me! I feel like a high school student, stuck in kindergarten, and that is the highest degree I will ever be able to associate with!
I know there are others, like you and me, out there.
All Along, I am put to the test; still, MATTHEW 18:20 ensures me.
My wherewithal remains very still, maybe latent, for I feel so, so alone in life, as the girl whom the Light Bearer hath sent to thwart God’s plan (for me)- a thorn seed, tossed amongst the soil of the path He machete-ied-out for me, as to overgrow my path to hide it from sight, so my spirit might lose It’s way, …That Girl whom I splayed-out my heart for, of which she stole a little piece of, as she was a thief in the night, a thief, stealing from a Knight! … What brazen balls hath her prowess possess and allow to glimmer and shine free for all the townspeople to see!
Oh, Doug, it was a sight, a glorious, glorious Dark Light which the Light Bearer had sent to me to lead me to stand at the top of that mountain, taunting me to jump off, offering me all of the world into my own, one hand! The Light Bearer did tempt and lead me, indeed, to the precipice of that cliff, but I scoffed him off humbly, quietly, authentically, still in debt to desire and still so enthralled by the idea of all of it!
But, no, stones cannot be turned into bread; and the Light Bearer was only able to inhabit but a tiny speck inside my head; for hard-fought strength, humbling wisdom and gleaming beauty- (the pillars of my dream)- those three, (but not alone), hath erected The Temple, sheltering and protecting me!
That Woman, Doug, she is gone. She left today. Off to Presque Isle, far, (thank God,), Far,… away!
Her leaving is not so much a gift from God, but the spoils of the war which He fought for me (up there) and won (on my behalf, bringing physical reality to his glory!)
Still, MATTHEW 18:20 inspires hope in me that, as a fisher of men, my cast-out line shall find that third sea-faring man who’s will is like yours and mine- whose urgency is equally sincere and full of fervor! As the world is so compartmentalized and spread-out, as the tribes of Judah have been, whilst the Tribulation is continually afoot, at-hand, on the rise and commencing, there are soldiers (in Christ,) who are dubbed as Knights- only by our actions, volition and by the record which only God (alone, Himself,) scribes of us. They are not dubbed by the King or the Queen, by the townspeople or in some grotesquely pompous, public ceremony. We, fellow soldiers in Christ, are dubbed by our own hearts, by our own souls; and the hand which dons the dubbing sword is attached to the heart of Jesus, the son of the Great Architect! Therefore, tradition remains fiercely pertinent and much needed! History must be studied whilst it self-knowingly repeats itself!
I feel all alone in the above communicated, for I am like Diogenes, walking through the marketplace, carrying a lit lamp during the daytime, because that is the only way I might find an honest man! (It takes the whole town to call the wise man crazy before they may completely persist in their folly to eventually become wise. …. Only after we are humbled by our own reckoning of our own absurdity can we truly see the catalysts of our own follies!)
Where is this group of men whom I seek?
Where is the gardener, the blacksmith, the butcher, the stone cutter, the mason, the carpenter, the silversmith, the goldsmith and the craftsmen skilled in iron and in bronze? Where is this tribe, this village, this community? Where are these men, Doug? How can we begin with MATTHEW 18:20 and build it up to thirteen (or more) like-minded, like-spirited witnesses of the light if I can only connect with two along my traversing journey? (I am one of those people, so you, really, are the only other man whose faith I can attest for; therefore, there is only one:
You are it, Doug.
I am it, Doug.
(Like the game of Tag, everybody becomes, “it,” if they want to play the game!)
The reason you and I are different, Doug, is because we are always, “it,”! We like being, “it,” because we get to touch other people so that they may feel the same love which you and I feel,…- that power of being, “it,”…. (being Recognized and Loved by Jesus)
Doug, when you feel a warm, growing feeling in your heart, that’s Jesus, tagging you, grinning, “Your It! … I Love You!”
Then, Jesus runs away, knowing that you’ll chase him and try to match His game!
Why am I so lost and stressed-out in this world, Doug? The above is the only thing that ever goes on in my head every moment of my daze… That is the stress which I live under constantly. ECCLESIASTES 1:18
Keep matching His game, Doug! Keep chasing Jesus! He may seem like he keeps running away from you, but that is just his playtime- designed to make you stronger!
I held back the tears,
washing that dish,
Knowing that those eyes would soon
shimmer no more upon me;
Glimmer no more in my sight;
Blink neither a tear of sorrow with me,
Nor open in excitement at me!
Leah’s eyes – They shine and glimmer as if two stars from Orion’s Belt have escaped their constellation to take throne upon the most beautiful place known to the universe!
“That was so good!” She smiled.
“Thank you! …. I washed the dish!”
I’m doing dishes for the Invisible Woman.
Leah Hates Doing Dishes.
I’m doin’ the dishes for Leah.
No, Leah was not going to do the dishes; I am doing the dishes because Leah wants me to make her pancakes, But I only have enough dishes for myself; So I am doing my own dishes so Leah may eat off of a clean plate.
If I were cooking only for me, I would not bother to clean the dishes! … As I scrubbed my little, bluestone plate, I thought of her- How she said she never does dishes.
Leah eats finger food- she even plucks sizzling, steaming onions from the pan while they’re still cooking! With her bare hands, she slurps them down in second-degree-tongue-burning style!
“… After all, it takes the Strength, Wisdom and Beauty of a Free Man to offer charity to a brother in need,..”
The hand of charity is not short, but the arm which reserves it genuflects to the miser. …
After all, it takes the Strength, Wisdom and Beauty of a Free Man to offer charity to a brother in need,.. but only if that charity does not weaken such Free Man or his home.
Chip Van Hassel
Where is there a Lodge Of Master Markers, Who’s moon-body has surfed Beyond this already-traversed marble?
Is it from the east? Is it to the West? Could it be farther South, Or even closer north?
Could the albatross Have already flown across, Leaving the mariner’s quiver inclined by the motion of chilled skin?
This building, A tabernacle to those who seek, Is both verb and noun, Word and sound.
‘Tis a corner-cutters’ dream, That tent, That rejected stone! I may not mark it alone!
No longer a symbol, Lost carving, or word, The Master’s capstone Has corners which point directions.
Where hath the path been beaten to; and who’s feet have tamped-down that earth?
No master carves his own name; No flint strikes against steel. No building Raises its own gables.
If the search Is to build here and now, than the ashes of the earth are the edge of this town.
Many Tibetan monks used Lotus seeds for their malas
What Is a Mala?
A mala may be known as a beaded necklace which is used by monks to count their breaths, or, more accurately, to maintain focus while meditating.
How Does A Mala Work?
A Mala is a beaded necklace composed of 108 beads, divided into 4 sections. One bead is held between the meditator’s fingers to indicate one entire breath – in and out. After the out breath, the fingers move to the next bead, and the practitioner repeats that process.
This process is the perfect way to maintain focus on the meditation at hand.… When our mind wanders off, our fingers switch to another bead, and we come back to our focus.
The average meditation session lasts about 45 minutes, which accounts for 2 sections of those beads.
Dividing the sections are, “Focus Beads,” which are larger beads- different form the rest in size and texture, to bring the practitioner back to the original focus, or mantra, of the meditation. This is done because the mind easily wanders off and drifts throughout the meditation; so the larger beads remind the meditator to come back to the original focus.
Most meditators cannot sit for an entire session of the 108 beads.
One section is comprised of 27 beads, which usually takes about 27 minutes to get through. Two sections of beads usually equals 45 minutes of meditation.
Many Tibetan monks used Lotus seeds for their malas. Lotus seeds start out as white, and, overtime, they turn black from usage. That being said, anybody wearing a lotus seed mala which is Black is a very, very well conditioned practitioner!
The three bottom beads of the mala have more meaning, which I will describe at a later date.
“I seek you with all my heart; do not let me stray from your commands.”
PSALMS 119:10
-Morning-
Sunday is church day.
I attended church service at the Ocala Farm Ministry this morning. It was a light congregation- smaller than it was a couple of years ago when I had attended. Chaplain Bob was so inviting! His smile was the light of the room!
Before the service began, I wrote about a recent experience. I wrote:
“As I walk in, I observe immediate fear and condemning curiosity. Sinners,scared of the unknown. The one woman prostrated her eyes and averted them, as to not meet mine. She does not want me here, because she is not happy with herself. She sees that I am a Mirror. I am reminded of JAMES 1:22-24.
“Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like someone who looks at his face in a mirror and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like.”
JAMES 1:22-24
My current anger with society is directed at people like she. “Stop it!” is my attitude. “Stop sinning by expressing fear towards me! Stop being scared of the unknown! Yes, fear the Lord; however, God is not, “unknown”. Indeed, we may not see the Lord’s face; but we do KNOW him. Do you have no faith in His son’s message? The anger I observe is not a sin, but is a symptom and an expression of their hidden sins, which they even refuse to admit, (or confess,) to God! (See PSALM 119:6-7.) “ Then I would not be put to shame when I consider all your commands. I will praise you with an upright heart as I learn your righteous laws.”
I remember: “Love the Lord, your God, first, with all your heart; and have no other Gods before me.” “Love the Lord, first…” is the most important commandment! (Even according to Jesus!)”
Church Service Starts.
“Good Morning!” Chaplain Bob greeted us from the pulpit. Then, he quickly corrected himself, “…or ‘good noon’! (he commented on how he was a half an hour late for service today.) He happily proclaimed that, yesterday, he and his wife, Dee, had celebrated thirty-two years of marriage together!
He welcomed me into the congregation, saying, “Chip is here! He studies the Bible a lot and takes a lot of notes. Maybe you will be on his list where he sends blogs and things. Sometimes, I need an interpreter to read it, but,…”. Bob left it at that.
Chaplain went on to proclaim, “If you have no fear of death, what could you fear in life?!?” Then, he asked, “Ronnie, do you have a story for us?”
“I do!” Ronnie answered. He approached the pulpit and embraced Chaplain Bob in a to which Bob responded, “Squeeze a little harder; crack my back!”
Ronnie, wearing white gloves, told how his family had driven him to Walmart to get him some underwear and a pair of Sketchers.
Then, Pastor Doug had a short message for us. He stated that Jesus gave us peace between God and us. Jesus told us to show good will towards men. “Not peace between you and your fellow man, but peace between you and God.”
Doug read from the book of LUKE, chapter 10, verses 30 through 35.
“In reply Jesus said: “A man was going down from Jerusalem to Jericho, when he was attacked by robbers. They stripped him of his clothes, beat him and went away, leaving him half dead. 31 A priest happened to be going down the same road, and when he saw the man, he passed by on the other side. 32 So too, a Levite, when he came to the place and saw him, passed by on the other side. 33 But a Samaritan, as he traveled, came where the man was; and when he saw him, he took pity on him. 34 He went to him and bandaged his wounds, pouring on oil and wine. Then he put the man on his own donkey, brought him to an inn and took care of him. 35 The next day he took out two denarii[a] and gave them to the innkeeper. ‘Look after him,’ he said, ‘and when I return, I will reimburse you for any extra expense you may have.’”
Luke 10:30-25
Pastor Doug explained, “WE are the ones robbing and beating the man who the Good Samaritan helped! Christ is the Good Samaritan- the Redeemer! “We are to forgive others as the Lord has forgiven us!.”
After that, Chaplain Bob made a statement, from which I copied him saying, “You don’t even like me; why should I help you?” This rhetorical question began a thought process for me which was quickly interrupted by paying attention to the next speaker from the pulpit, Dee.
Dee shared how the women’s Bible study was studying the book of REVELATION and cross referencing it, therefore, “owning the knowledge, not just having someone tell us; but we owned it!” Dee referenced how men do not attend the Bible study; yet, when they do, they do not stay long.
This made me curious why this church does not have a Men’s Bible study.
Dee referenced the book of DANIEL, chapter seven, along with MATTHEW 16:14-16 and MATTHEW 12:1-8.
“When Jesus came to the region of Caesarea Philippi, he asked his disciples, “Who do people say the Son of Man is?” They replied, “Some say John the Baptist; others say Elijah; and still others, Jeremiah or one of the prophets.” “But what about you?” he asked. “Who do you say I am?” Simon Peter answered, “You are the Messiah, the Son of the living God.”
Matthew 16:13-16
“At that time Jesus went through the grainfields on the Sabbath. His disciples were hungry and began to pick some heads of grain and eat them. When the Pharisees saw this, they said to him, “Look! Your disciples are doing what is unlawful on the Sabbath.”
He answered, “Haven’t you read what David did when he and his companions were hungry? He entered the house of God, and he and his companions ate the consecrated bread—which was not lawful for them to do, but only for the priests. Or haven’t you read in the Law that the priests on Sabbath duty in the temple desecrate the Sabbath and yet are innocent? I tell you that something greater than the temple is here. If you had known what these words mean, ‘I desire mercy, not sacrifice,’ you would not have condemned the innocent. For the Son of Man is Lord of the Sabbath.”
Matthew 12:1-8
Dee told us, “Our ultimate work in life is to be like Jesus for the rest of the world.” “Jesus seeks to save lost people.”
Then, Rachael, “…had something a little quick.”
“Who is the authority?” She rhetorically asked. “Who do we follow?” She bought up D.O.G.E. and, “The List of Five Things”. “Who are we working for?” Rachael asked the congregation.
I admit, Rachael’s “…a little something quick,” inspired me to continue us writing a piece I have been working on (in my head,) concerning working, “for,” a boss or a company as opposed to doing work for yourself- your own well-being.
She went-on to reference the Ten Commandments and stated, “The first four are between you and God; the last six are between you and man.”
Chaplain Bob took the pulpit again. He spoke how there is always something going on in the world. “There’s always something going on!” Most importantly, he reminded us that, “there is always a way to do the Lord’s work even though you think you have something other to do today.”
He reverenced the book of JOHN 9:1-?…. Then, he told a story of a man watching the attendant who lit the gas street lamps a long, long time ago, telling us that the observer proclaimed,
“Look! He’s punching holes in the darkness!”
Street Observer
Chaplain Bob spoke of ISAIAH, chapter fifty-five. “Without Christ, you live without purpose! You are the walking-dead; you are zombies! …. Distracted to get our next meal!” (Paraphrased)
He reminded us of one of the most powerful messages found in the book of JEREMIAH:
‘You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”
JEREMIAH 29:13
Chaplain Bob then told the story of the man who was blind for thirty years before Jesus restored his sight. To recap his telling of the tale, here, would not do his sermon justice! “Was it worth it? (Being blind all this time to, now, see…) I don’t know!” Bob professed.
One amazing thing Chaplain Bob pointed out was this question: “Was it worth it? …. Being blind for thirty years to come to this moment?” (seeing all of the beautiful colors of the world, etc,…
“What was the first thing he saw? … …. Jesus!
“I was blind; but, now, I see!”
“Changing the human heart toward the miracle of eternity is the most beautiful thing in the world!”
Chaplain Bob Miller
“We are a peculiar people.” Chaplain Bob encouraged us. “Every morning, I wake up, and I thank God!” He happily proclaimed!
“But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.”
1 PETER 2:9
He referenced 2 CORINTHIANS 4:3.
“And even if our gospel is veiled, it is veiled to those who are perishing.”
2 CORINTHIANS 4:3
We held, “The Last Supper,” by humbly and graciously taking communion. Bob recognized the Love Jesus had for His father, even knowing that his own father had condemned him to death. “None of u s will experience that kind of love!” He informed us.
One thing I noticed about today’s service which is different than any other church service I have ever been to in my life is that we did not pass a plate around asking for money. Indeed, tithing is important; but the fact that we did not, today, shows that the Ocala Farm Ministry is separate from most other churches, because most churches focus more on donations than on The Word. The Ocala Farm Ministry is so focused on The Word of God that profit from money is farther from their agenda, so the real work of Jesus does, by deed, reign within the body of the church!
“…I have now determined that the continued redaction and withholding of information from records pertaining to the assassination of President John F. Kennedy is not consistent with the public interest and the release of these records is long overdue. And although no Act of Congress directs the release of information pertaining to the assassinations of Senator Robert F. Kennedy and the Reverend Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr., I have determined that the release of all records in the Federal Government’s possession pertaining to each of those assassinations is also in the public interest….”
President Donald John Trump
“Policy and Purpose. More than 50 years after the assassinations of President John F. Kennedy, Senator Robert F. Kennedy, and the Reverend Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr., the Federal Government has not released to the public all of its records related to those events. Their families and the American people deserve transparency and truth. It is in the national interest to finally release all records related to these assassinations without delay.”
When you confiscate somebody’s wealth, it removes the incentive to become financially successful. (Studies show, the aforementioned is also the resulting product of communism.)
When people become billionaires, they are not stealing your money to get there, and they have no obligation to pay taxes in the first place; so there is no, “pay their fair share; because:
Taxation is theft. When you pay taxes, the government is stealing from you; and you are now angry that a billionaire is not being stolen from at a proportionately equal rate as you! (It’s as if there is some, “Ronin Hood Effect,” where, just because somebody has a lot of money, it’s ok to steal from them!)
Again, people don’t become billionaires by stealing your money; and just because the government is robbing you, that does not mean it is OK to be mad at somebody because they have chosen to not allow the government to rob at a higher rate than it is robbing you! It is like a sheep being mad another sheep for running away from a wolf!
Wearing a jacket with the presidential seal on it is not him acting like an idiot; because he’s not acting at all.
This man, wearing this jacket is just like an actor, wearing a jacket with the presidential seal on it. What functions Robert Ee Niro carried out in his life to dignify him wearing that seal? It is comparable to someone wearing a fake badge or pretending to be something that they are not!
To which industry and in what realm has Robert De Niro dedicated his efforts and time to suggest that he has any direct affiliated with the Oval Office?
When he played mobster roles, we respected him and viewed him as a hard, strong-willed, level-minded tough, scary bad ass!
When we see him speak on television, today, we laugh at him and view him as a weak-willed, mentally imbalanced, frail, pitifully, adolescently humorous hack!
You could come to the conclusion that Robert De Niro appearing publicly wearing a jacket with the presidential seal on it would be foolish, and acting like an idiot,… But… 
“…The souls that are purified, not by the Law but by light, rise to the Heavenly regions, to enjoy there a perfect felicity. Those that persevere in evil go from body to body, the seats of passions and evil desires. …”
If bad people were doing good things, would you stop those good things from happening simply because the people doing those good things are bad people?
I threw a small pumpkin into the compost pile, and, alas! … the gourd hath sprouted!
-Afternoon-
I worked for the next door neighbor all day doing landscaping and the-like.
-Evening-
The pumpkin flourishes; and I embarked upon embellishments to the compost bin. This bin is a prototype, and I am going to build three or more and place them, successively, so that I can turn and alternate the composting material as it develops into a fruitful medium.
A flourishing vegetable and herb garden shall soon begin to take-root!
…I enjoyed the time but was mentally exhausted, (as an introvert,) of having to socialize with people….
Journeyman’s Journal
Saturday February 1, 2025
70°F sunny, nice
15:32 HRS
I went and had lunch with Rebecca today. We met at Cody’s where she introduced me to, her, “work husband,” …. Caleb, I think that;s what his name is; but I know that I am wrong about that. I am sure it starts with a, “C,”.
We had a bland conversation, peppered- over by and uncontainable excitement of not having seen each other at Deleware Park about 22 years!
The expectation to expel the excitement of the other side did not come to fruition, as there simply was not enough time to re-hash, or to make-known exactly how exasperated by happiness we were to be in each other’s company again after all these years!
Everybody projects their best, “self,” out to the rest of the world. We attempt to mold people’s expectations of us according to the fabrications in our heads, (or fabrications of expectations which we deem to exist in other people’s heads about us).
This as a natural instinct in response to the ever-changing minds of the other humans around us. It is a social construct.
Most People are NOT Like Me.
I do not fit into that social construct. I have lost the expectations I had of myself when I was younger; and I have been disappointed, time and time again, when other people do not live-up to their word or change their expectations of me.
Therefore, I have lost, not only the expectations I used to harbor of other people, but I have also relinquished my interests in the former expectations which I had relegated myself to.
Call That A Mid-Life Crisis If You Want, But I Call It An After-Mid-Life-Crisis-Hump!
I have less expectations of myself and nearly zero expectation of other people. When a person has no expectations of himself or the people around him, that person does not respond to other people in the ways which everybody else typically projects their personalities out into the world.
The person of less expectation exercises apathy in a genuine way (“The True, ‘Me’!”).
This way is different from most peoples’, because most people view, “apathy,” simply as being, “un-caring,” or, “not emotionally affected by a situation”.
However, to a person who has experienced trauma repeatedly throughout their lives, their type of, “apathy,” is completely different from the average person’s apathy!
As for the last kid being pointed at and laughed at because he is the last one picked for kick-ball, traumatized people have felt and understand what is going through that kid’s head! Therefore, our apathy is not for the kid who’s picked last, but for the lack of love from those people who have picked the kid last!
They lack love for themselves more than they lack love for others; and that is what I experience apathy for!
I am much different from the finger pointers and those laughers- they who chose the poor kid to be last!
Ironically, for that ^, (their own actions,) I am shunned from their social construct!
Why Aren’t Most People Like Me?
When you do a job better than expectations or do something nice for (certain,) people, (these days,) most People expect you to expect some sort of overly-inflated return for that kindness.
Therefore, it is, now, normal to, “instinctively,” refrain from, “going that extra mile;” or, “lending an extra ear,” to a stranger in need!
For me, apathy has set-in. Survival instinct compels me to suppress my being aware of all of which I am aware of, (dictionary definition of, “cognitive dissonance”).
More and more, as people around me bury their heads in their phones or are so encumbered by all of their time and their spiritual energy being commandeered by their work, do not read the laws which are bing passed right now.
They are not reading the text of the papers which the House of Representatives and the Senate, then, the President are voting into law. …. Does this concern me? …. No. …
It is shit which ends up with me serving you a Shit-Sandwich, butt which is something which I do! Due to the last two sentences, I just said, “do due!”!!!
“Group mentality is the monarchy of the new era, and freedom is the new terrorist against consciousness expansion.”
The only danger we face in life is acceptance of any way other than the way of the individual. As a doormat cannot wipe its own feet on itself, the common man can only be common when he accepts the norm.
Group mentality is the monarchy of the new era, and freedom is the new terrorist against positive consciousness expansion. The way to change reality is to Be the change within one’s own, individual mind.
Chip Van Hassel
We will never convince the people as a group; we can only convince the people by being an example for the group to follow.
To follow the group is to be a lemming, jumping off of the cliff.
To accept the common man's reality is an individual choice to sleep.
To awaken, is the greater energy, tapped-in to by free thought and purposeful action.
Wealth can only be distributed when there is a definition of, “wealth”. Distribution only occurs when there are those who distribute.
Subtract “wealth,” from the equation; and subtract distribution from common man’s mentality, and the true answer becomes screamingly apparent.
Modern man- the evolutionary betrayer.
Individuals who are free thinkers will be ridiculed by their current peers, only to be recognized for their genius long, long after their deaths.
Society is never ready for the truth, but Positive thought is always ready for society.
“…More than 50 years after the assassinations of President John F. Kennedy, Senator Robert F. Kennedy, and the Reverend Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr., the Federal Government has not released to the public all of its records related to those events. Their families and the American people deserve transparency and truth. It is in the national interest to finally release all records related to these assassinations without delay.” -President Donald J. Trump
The more you expect from this world, the less you will receive.
The less you expect from this world, the more you will understand.
-Chip Van Hassel
Friday, January 24, 2025
10:09 HRS
41°F windy, sunny
Out of Few Come Many
Last night was not too cold.
The wind has become less aggressive as the brisk winter-front dusts northern Florida and Louisiana with snow!
Bible Verse:
A pastor once told the congregation to, “Journalize the Bible!” I understood what he meant. I have simply not done that. It does, though, say, in PROVERBS,
“Do not envy the wicked, do not desire their company; for their hearts plot violence, and their lips talk about making trouble. By wisdom a house is built, and through understanding it is established; through knowledge its rooms are filled with rare and beautiful treasures.
The wise prevail through great power, and those who have knowledge muster their strength.
Surely you need guidance to wage war, and victory is won through many advisers.”
Many people in the horse racing business are always plotting; … making trouble! Usually, it is the pencil pushers, the desk jockeys and the clipboard carriers who make the trouble.
The reason they do this is because they are less capable than other people. Indeed, they attempt to surround theirselves with people of lower value, who lack ability, but they cannot find enough similarly incompetent people; so they plot schemes and create a haphazard environment, causing any self-respecting professional to eventually redress grievances. Thereafter, they are labeled as, “The Problem”!
Yes, the person, in this business, who points out faults with the intention of bettering the business, (as a whole,) is always the one pushed, (chased, rather,) out of the barn and treated as a complication and a difficult person, rather than being recognized as a well-thought-out proponent of the vested interests of the entire racing industry as one, whole mechanism!
Every place I have been, (most recently, Kenny McPeek’s,) every time I have put-forth the correct amount of effort to better the product and the industry, my coworkers, and, especially, the assistants and people above me, (including the trainers in many cases,) begin to chastise me and attempt to gaslight and to project upon me; because they do not understand the realm of perfection which I have already experienced, which inspires me to share it with everybody I meet for the rest of my life!
Perfection is frowned upon and shunned!
Kenny McPeek’s assistants even told me, “Yeah, every time I think I’m doing a good job, the next day, I come in, and it feels like I am just waiting to get fired! Every time I put-forth a good effort to make this place better, the people around me freak-out, and it feels like I’m just going to get fired!” (Paraphrased)
Be Advised:
That’s right, after you have been to the top, you begin to think and act differently. Your expectations of the people around you become heightened; therefore, your level of disappointment in your fellow man is heightened in congruency with that raised level of expectation!
The more you expect from this world, the less you will receive. The less you expect from this world, the more you will understand.
Me
On a Different Note:
I have not written poetry in over fifteen years. I used to write pages and pages of it when I was in my teens and early twenties! As my realizations and expectations have changed over time, so has my writing style and my reading preferences. I stay completely away from fiction. I study a lot of history, political history, Masonic shit, religious and philosophical shit as well.
I have come to understand that the Masons are the only ones who truly know history as it actually happened and that the secretes of freemasonry are merely the Truth about reality more than anything. It is not, “ha, ha,” funny that they have collectively, purposely hidden the shape of the world from their neighbors’ children, and even their grandchildren (at this juncture); yet it is funny in a peculiar way!
This, “peculiar way,” is, in fact, their intentionally refusing to know the truth and to purposely push lies that they, themselves, don’t even believe! These people know that they do not know the truth; and they are happier with being aware of their ignorance, in the stead of feeling (self)-discontent for their willful ignorance. This is the result of pure, natural stupidity!
Studies:
I admit that my most recent studies have been comprised of studying graphs of the stock market, trying to see and understand the patterns of the price fluctuations of the stocks.
My buddy, Travis, has turned $150.00 in to $1,600.00 in the last five months; and, if he cashes in 495 shares of PTLE at $14.25, he will have proved a profit of $6,903.75! …. In five months off of a one hundred and fifty dollar investment!!!
I still own 8 shares of PTLE.
I also own 1 shares of DVN, but I am down $36.00, because Robinhood charged $100.00 to transfer my account from them to Fidelity. ACTUALLY, that is a LIE! They did not charge me; what they did was, create a negative $100.00 balance, transfer that negative balance to Fidelity; then, Fidelity charged me that $100.00. …. It is all a scam! I am simply going to wait for the stock to make-up for that loss; at which point, I am going to find a more legitimate way to play the market!
I used AutoPilot to see that Nancy Pelosi purchased one million dollars of stock in Vistra Corp, tempted to buy one share with the last $190.00 I have!
Crazy, isn’t it?!
The plan is to start making money tomorrow and the next day, somehow.
I have been keeping an eye on President Donald Trump’s Executive Actions. I am entertained by the whole, horrifying deal!
If he survives the next four years, it would be a feat of security, vigilance and a testament to how capable and amazing Men are (specifically on the battle-front)!
It was the driver, Bill Greer, shooting a pneumatic pistol with his left hand:
Watch the Driver in the video below!
When Jackie tried to climb out of the back of the car, she stoped and ran away from the secret service member! She turned back around and got back into the limousine and hunched-down on the floor!
“They killed Jack”. She said. “They,” meaning the Secret Service!
Today is going to be another day of mental organization- of writing in my daily planner and notebooks; sticking post-it notes, in procrastination, in specific places in my daily planner. It is going to be an administrative day, of sorts. I am bracing for tonight’s 31 degree weather! Contemplating removing my stuff from storage; but, knowing the money, time and energy involved in such an endeavor, I shall be putting-it-off one, more day, as I have for the last two years!
My complacency has become stagnancy!
It did, though, take me two hours and forty minutes to type what you have just read!
Don Adams Studies:
I was doing some research for my friend, Don Adams. Our research had compelled me to contact the George Washington Presidential Library, requesting a letter written by George Washington Parke Curtis, (President Washington’s step-son,) to Lawrence Lewis, dated, June 20, 1846.
What I want to find in the letter is correspondence regarding Lawrence Lewis’ desire to be relinquished of the responsibility of being one of the only two, surviving executors of President George Washington’s estate.
According to this SOURCE, “…Nearly half a century after Washington’s death, with all of the executors but George Washington Parke Custis dead, no final settlement of the estate had been reached.”
Washington’s Presidential Library responded with the following email; and photos of the letter are below.
“This afternoon, I invested about $23.00, purchasing 8 shares of PLTE and placed a stop limit order to sell at $14.24, getting out just one penny before my buddy, Travis, (who clued-me-in on the stock,)…”
Journeyman’s Journal
Thursday, January 23, 2025
14:45 HRS
48°F windy, cloudy & cold
Day of Waiting the Cold out in Ocala
Spent the night under blankets to survive the thirty-five degree temperature. Woke up well after sunrise; and the wind still blew as it does now, as it did last night.
Tarp Fingers in the Sky!
The flapping of my tarp, overhead, reminds me of a flag made of thin fabric which surfs upon the treacherously wailing wind, waiting to rip and tear, to become tattered to fly as fingers of listless strings, waving irratically in the wind; losing theirselves, piece-by-piece, with every blast of time-intensifying, cold breeze which ravages the woven fabric into martyr-like shreds of disappearing embers into the grey, Florida, winter sky.
Starbucks Oligarchic System Defeat! (POWER UNLOCKED!)
Yesterday, I spent over five hours at Starbucks typing and researching; getting caffeine-high as fuck as the fourth coffee rolled around!
I have defeated their system! …. At Starbucks, after you purchase a coffee, the refill is $0.54. So, I just buy a large and keep paying fifty-four cents for a refill, saving me an average of $15.95 every time I visit!
I suffered quite the headache in the evening as the result of downing five coffees in five hours and not eating a single thing! (That was last night.)
Stock Market Venture
This afternoon, I invested about $23.00, purchasing 8 shares of PLTE and placed a stop limit order to sell at $14.24, getting out just one penny before my buddy, Travis, (who clued-me-in on the stock,) sells his 495 shares! He is convinced that the stock will hit $15.00; but I contend that most people will get out around $11.48. (Don’t ask me why.).
I also placed a limit buy order on VST if the price drops down to $190.00 per share, to buy one share; and the offer expires by 4pm, today; (and it did expire). My intuition tells me to leave all of my money in there and to find a similar stock, such as in companies like: NVIDIA, which is at $146.23 right now. I need to do more stock research.
I got a kick out of watching events at the Oval Office. One of them being this one:
One way these people keep their jobs is by purposely creating a haphazardly difficult environment which chases-away any self-respecting, professional help, leaving you with unskilled, non-dedicated, substandard workforce; and you remove their incentive to become better horsemen and to make the lives of the horses more enjoyable by coercing them to work seven days a week with NEVER a day off; and you pay them as little as possible with no suggestion of a pay-raise as a result of dedication and hard work.
“…The EssENEs were of the Eclectic Sect of Philosophers, and held PLATO in the highest esteem; they believed that true philos-ophy, the greatest and most salutary gift of God to mortals, was scattered, in various portions, through all the different Sects; and that it was, consequently, the duty of every wise man to gather it from the several quarters where it lay dispersed, and to employ it, thus reunited, in destroying the dominion of impiety and vice.”
“God says Pythagoras, “is neither the object of sense, nor subject to passion, but invisible, only intelligible, and supremely intelligent. In His body He is like the light, and in His soul He resembles truth. He is the universal spirit that pervades and dif-fuseth itself over all nature. All beings receive their life from Him. There is but one only God, who is not, as some are apt to imagine, seated above the world, beyond the orb of the Universe; but being Himself all in all, He sees all the beings that fill His immensity; the only Principle, the Light of Heaven, the Father of all. He produces everything; He orders aná disposes every-thing; He is the REASON, the LIFE, and the MoTION of all being.” “
“Then the shadows of a horrible doubt fall upon the soul that would fain love, trust and believe; a darkness, of which this that surrounded you was a symbol. It doubts the truth of Revelation, its own spirituality, the very existence of a beneficent God. It asks itself if it is not idle to hope for any great progress of Humanity toward perfection, and whether, when it advances in one respect, it does not retrogress in some other, by way of compensation: whether advance in civilization is not increase of self-ishness: whether freedom does not necessarily lead to license and anarchy: whether the destitution and debasement of the masses does not inevitably follow increase of population and commercial and manufacturing prosperity. It asks itself whether man is not the sport of a blind, merciless Fate: whether all philosophies are not delusions, and all religions the fantastic creations of human vanity and self-conceit; and, above all, whether, when Reason is abandoned as a guide, the faith of Buddhist and Brahmin has not the same claims to sovereignty and implicit, unreasoning credence, as any other.”
“Thrice blessed are they who never doubt, who ruminate in patient contentment like the kine, or doze under the opiate of a blind faith; on whose souls never rests that Awful Shadow which is the absence of the Divine Light.”
I’ve realized that my true family does not actually Love me, but loves their own complacency as a replacement of that love. Even those who have accepted me and shown me love before have decided to be cold, heartless and ignore me when I communicate. I met a beautiful woman a while back, and she looked at me with Lust in her eyes even though her husband was in the other room, talking to Elli. Days later, that same woman caught me glancing at her open shirt and covered up- annoyed that I had looked, but it was SHE who gave me permission to look at her with lust, because that is what she did to me days before! I’ve learned that that woman is cold, lost and self-involved, too, just like my true family. The truth is: most people do not want to hear the truth. I am a mirror- which is why most people steer clear of me. Even the frog-lickers, the shaman visitors, the Crystal sellers,… they all, connected to the Great Spirit or not,… they ALL avoid me. The place I am in life now is that I’ve finally realized: after all these years (I’m 43;) of people acting uncomfortable around me, speaking to me in a nervous way, acting around me in a nervous way- they all tried to project their mental issues on me- treating me like I am the one who is strange and wrong, and that they are the ones who are normal and correct. … I have come to the place in my life where I recognize that it has NEVER been me and ALWAYS been they who are inadequate, strange and wrong! When my own family who thinks the fact that I am a traveler, that I never stay in one place- my own family treats that as irresponsible, strange, immature; and they think that I am lost. The reality of the matter is that it is they who are irresponsible, strange, immature and lost! My own family is irresponsible, because they blindly believe and do what the television and what the, “government,” tells them to believe and to do. My own family is strange, because they never hugged me when they greeted me, they are scared of true affection. (Maybe, because they lack love for themselves.). My own family is lost, because they have each other, but push me away and tell me I am not welcome in their home, or even in their town. They reach-out for the respect and acceptance of their neighbors and say, “we’ve built a life here…” but their neighbors don’t care about them and don’t know them; and they did not, “build a life;” they merely lived in a house and,… Lived- that is not, “building a life;” that is just staying in one place, never becoming more or doing more for their fellow man. They care only about the three people inside of their houses; and they have unwelcomed me from their houses. The irony is that- it is warriors such as myself who have allowed these weak people to live in such houses. I ate at a restaurant today; and there was no knife on the table. I used my pocket knife. The owner of the place got all nervous and started acting scared and giving me the “side-eye”. I’ve used my knife at restaurants many times before. I’ve gotten the same exact response from people. It’s not me; it is they… It is completely normal for a man to carry a knife. It is not normal for a man to NOT carry a knife. Real men carry a knife, and we use it at least twice a day. They – The nervous people who are scared of a pocket knife- are the stupid ones, not me! The thought never crosses my mind to stab somebody with my knife; however, when people see me using it to cut my food at a restaurant, those idiots think I’m gonna stab somebody… They are the stupid ones; and I am not strange. I am more normal than they even know how to be! Of all of the people who have accepted me, but now, and forever-more, will treat me like I am not normal and that I make them nervous- it is not my doing- it is their own. They have a mental problem; and they are scared of me, because the mirror hides no wrinkles! “Thank You For Letting Me Share.” FYI: Evan is one of those people. Anybody who earns a living by only talking on the phone is a parasite. Those of us who pick up the axe and the shovel- we are the true spirit; whereas the bankers and Relators are the untrue darkness.
“The Scout goes by compass, both morally and navigationally and ventures only to glean the best of the whole. Mankind is dependent on The Scout. Information is The Holy Grail. Clarity is the Treasure! In our Scouts, our Rangers, the young men of the old, Mankind instills its faith.”
-Christopher Van Hassel
MSA
Non Nobis, Domine, non nobis, sed Nomini Tuo da gloriam
“In arrogance, there is great ruin and great instability. In idleness, there is loss and dire poverty, for idleness is the mother of famine.”
Book of Tobit 4:13
“Do not keep with you overnight the wages of those who have worked for you, but pay them at once. … Be on guard, son, in everything you do; be wise in all that you say, and discipline yourself in all your conduct. Do to no man or woman what you hate yourself.”
She is a Lion. There is no middle class anymore. The upper-middle class has diminished to becoming lower-middle class. The medium-middle class no longer exists; therefore, you are either lower-middle class (which is approximately 1% below poverty rate), welfare recipients (who are the coming denominator for the entire, middle class,”, and you have the Upper Class which is comprised of either aristocrats or their offspring. The new, upper class does not earn money via producing a product or providing a service anymore. Their money is not earned income, but capital gains, which are compounding interest payments garnered from stored, uncirculated currency. The amount the upper class spends is calculated to be less than those interest payments, therefore, they never spend the principal; and since the interest is compounded, the principal grows of it’s mere existence, without reinvesting or diversifying. Big chunks of money just sit there to collect interest, and remain uncirculated. In other words, the offspring who is spending the money is not earning it; that money comes from the clouds, into their pockets, and; to collect it, all they have to do is wake up in the morning!
The Lower Class, to collect money, the need to work to earn it. Waking up is the easy part for the blue-collar worker. Collecting the money which belongs to them always seems to be the hard part.
Waking up for a Trust Fund Baby is the easy part, too; but paying the people who work for them seems to be the hard part for them, as well!
It’s called a, “Trust Fund,” it the above is the reason why your paycheck (on a monthly basis,) is approximately $2,600.00 LESS than you need to save, get ahead and live a better quality life. It is not a mistake. There is a reason why the Federal Reserve is going to have to start paddling their canoe in the next four years; and what I just stated above is only part of the reason why! Semper Fidelis!
“You’re smart.. You’re tough. You’re Beautiful. The reason they’re attacking you is because you’re good at your job. …”
When Gaslighting did not work, here is what President Donald Trump said to Sarah Huckabee Sanders:
“You’re smart.. You’re tough. You’re Beautiful. The reason they’re attacking you is because you’re good at your job. …”
Sarah Huckabee Sanders (Repeating encouraging words which President Trump had empowered her with after she had been abused and gaslighted by angry Democrats)
Living the dangerous life, my psyche is always right at home within my own skin whilst dancing in synchronicity with the turmoil in the throws of the Punk-Rock pit.
“…His neurons tend not to carve-out the necessary pathways to the doors- beyond which the candle of truth flickers relentlessly for eternity.”
The Face Which Tries to Look at Itself
A man interprets, “doing the Lord’s work,” as living as the example of compassion and unconditional love. The man knows that, “the ultimate answer,” is to love the Lord above everything else. The man deems the act of loving himself as being the most selfish action a man could possibly undertake. (PROVERBS 16:5) The man, rather, deems that sacrificing himself for the sake of the happiness of others is, “doing the Lord’s work.” The man fails to actively share the love with himself which he yearns to share with others. In order to become the light of God for others, the man must learn to love the one person whom he deems to be most unworthy of such unconditional love!* This man has trained his mind to employ self-sacrifice over self-love. His neurons tend not to carve-out the necessary pathways to the doors- beyond which the candle of truth flickers relentlessly for eternity.
Infinity expands perpetually from one point in all directions.
Example of a Horse Stuck in the Inactive Side of Infinity:
A horse who slow-walks off of the track with the intention of being near other horses who are acting-up, therefore, giving them an excuse to act-up as well.
“Beautiful women do not have to work a day in their life; they simply need to charm a man who makes enough money to keep them both happy.”
Young Women- What They Want
“What is the dilemma with all of these young women being attracted to you?” Charlie asked me.
Lust
“All they want from me is sex, Charlie; … a quick night of passion of animalistic hedonism.”
Charlie smirked at me brightly.
“They are looking for that amazing action which changes their world-view.” I continued. “They are not looking for a husband to commit to or to hold on lonely nights.
We Are Surrounded By Adults Who Think Other Adults Are Authority Figures Over Each Other
The conundrum is that our fellow adults are still inundated by their childish and immature thought processes which guide their actions. Like a Christian yelling at the world to, “Repent!” I find myself screaming on the street corner, wearing a sandwich-board sign that says, “The End Is Near!” … telling my fellow man that we are all doomed to suffering and failure if we all do not collectively change our ways!
Society seems leery and scared of me. It is as if, if I genuinely be myself, people would look at me like I was dangerous and crazy.
The fact of the matter is that they are scared of their own realization of failure, that they purposely and actively deplete the value of their fellow man in order to maintain a dysfunctional status quo, therefore, lowering the worldly standard, making it easier to live at whatever quality of life they deem to be satisfactory.
We are all simply practicing, “the art of being ourselves!”
The Second Library
I used to scribe allegories all the time. In fact, I view human interaction in an allegorical sense. This inspired creative neurons to establish pathways throughout my brain. I wrote a lot of poetry and philosophical work.
I viewed the world as an artist does and interacted with it in an, “eccentric,” way.
As the Catholic Church has provenly been regarded as a citadel for pedophilia, the Pope heads that organization; and the majority of the world’s money kisses that ring most closely by way of sticking it’s globe of a head up the Pope’s ass, as so to give that unclean ass the most French of kisses!
I remember, when I was in high school, sitting alone in the snow behind Noah’s parents’ Isuzu Trooper, which had a “Free Tibet,” bumper sticker on it, drinking a bottle of Jim Beam whiskey.
In an overly-sexualized culture, there exists an air(e) of, “active-passive aggression,” which could be described as building(/being) the bridge upon which, “resting bitch face,” hath transmuted into, “active-bitch-face,”. This (invisible) force is a subconscious reaction to self-loathing. The catalyst of this paradigm is not conscientiously explored by the the common man. Most people are unaware
Yes, God has made me poor in the pocketbook but wealthy in spirit.
Some Visible Ghost Nibbles
The culture we live in seems strange and weak. People peer around and find everything to be strange while applying a weak predisposition; … scared, they are! People seem angry in a curious way; and people seem curious in an angry way.
Men look at me angrily- a self-hating mechanism. They are angry at the unknown, jealous imagination of me.
If there comes a time when you resent your teacher, you have become your own teacher; and you must relinquish your expectations of such former teacher.
Resentment is the product of contempt and the ego; both of which are cataclysms.
After contempt for a teaching ha been acknowledged, the ego presents itself. Regardless of the validity of the ego’s claim, the added contempt limits your judgement, creating learning barriers.
“…. Finding out that someone you know is a Freemason used to be a later step in developing a personal relationship with them; NEVER the opening of a friendship with somebody whom you have just met!
This juxtaposition has completely corrupted the Craft! …”
What is Different about Freemasonry Today?
The Freemasonic attitude towards his fellow man has changed from Fear of a Greater Power to an Ego-based display of stupidity! Why do I say that?
“there is no magical moment which makes everything change.”
There is No Cosmic Click.
Most people are seeking for that moment where it all, “clicks,” and everything, all of the sudden, makes sense and is correct, not realizing that there is no magical moment which makes everything change. (It’s all turtles!”)
Went from being on top of the world and having a defined future back to being all alone and desolate in three days. I’m not a cry baby. Sometimes, I feel I deserve better, but I am humble to understand that it has
The “Answer,” one seeks is more simple than the question asked.
Are You Troubled?
As we seek council to acquire clarity amongst our confusion, the only true clarity we find can be described as a love for one’s self.
Seeking the answer from an outside source seems ludicrous after the fact, because the answer is accepted from inside our own heart, beaming-outwardly, not from the outside of our body, beaming-inwardly!
The “Answer,” one seeks is more simple than the question asked.
“Culture is missing the Grand Power of Motivation towards the unknown- that physical action of advancing towards fear, pushing ourselves to our limits, so we may therefore push ourselves beyond those limits to create more advantageous precipices from which thereupon, we we may elevate our efforts; for we are rewarded with the strength, courage and some wisdom which allows us to experience the Great Power of Motivation which operates the Sun and the Moon.”
Make the aura around you flow of purple water- It’s current- Strong, Revolutionary of itself. When you notice that your focus has been lost Breathe-In Moderately-Controlled down through your Sacral Chakra, Circulating the inside of the chakra; condensing it’s outer physical membrane.
When an intellectual conversation dissolves into a self-loathing proclamation…
“The Answer,” they seek cannot materialize. Instead, the, “investigation,” becomes a self-exploration, describing the whole of humanity, fueled by pent-up emotion (which they want to share,) consequently being extinguished by the arrogant affect of being the observer attempting to objectively observe itself. As a picture of a pencil cannot draw itself, the human attempting to reconcile with its own cognitive dissonance by way of cognition is the same as the ocean attempting to dry itself off by splashing around!
“If I bear witness of myself, my witness is not true.
There is another who testifies in my favor, and I know that his testimony about me is true.”
JOHN 5:31-32
Of a man who chooses not to see the light, neither all the books in the world may enlighten him; and for a man who sees the light, a single word is too much! As we are surrounded by (and ruled by,) self-deceiving people, the only recompense is to constantly and instantly forgive them.
Be an example of the Great Light which shineth from above.
Manifesting the Horse’s power into my hands as Peace. Even muscle strain is peace and is void of conflict. Breath for peace. The monk, always at peace, keeps a clear mind, so he can react and act without judgement. –
“We are going to pretend to be offering you free health insurance and free rent, (on paper;) however, you will be earning much less than originally agreed to.”
Indentured Servitude
The Ol’, “Bait and Switch”
Two Steps:
#1. Bait:
“We love the work you’ve done for us! We will pay you $650.00 a week on a 1099 basis; and housing is included with the job.”
I’ll see you soon, She said After a morning of catastrophe. Things can be crazy at times, And I might seem just fine On the outside, But people can’t feel The knot that is tightening Inside of me. There will be a day, When we will walk Through some trees. It’s just that right now, I need to do what I should do. I need some time to myself, To ravel back up this mystery. I just need some time, She said, I need some time To just be Me.
Which training method did Jonathan Sheppard employ?
When somebody complained how Jonathan Sheppard would never explain his training program to them, this was my response:
Well, some of us understood his training program which was essentially reverse-engineered in congruency with the horse’s running date, its condition, the competition it would be up against, along with the expectations of its upcoming performance while always keeping the race AFTER that performance in mind.
“…Richie reached behind his bedpost to pull his bong out and noticed that a sock had been stuffed in the mouthpiece! …”
Today, the Bong Sock was invented
by Anita Fritzinger on 1 Center Street in High Bridge, New Jersey. (Coordinates: 40.66943° N, 74.89492° W).
The invention was a convenient byproduct of Anita’s dismay over the over-powering aroma of Bong Water in her son, Richie’s bedroom. Richie and his friend, me, walked into the room and noticed how fresh it smelled in his bedroom that day. His mom had always did his laundry and cleaned his room, but this day he as fresher, … different! Richie reached behind his bedpost to pull his bong out and noticed that a sock had been stuffed in the mouthpiece!
George Washington’s Last Will and Testament [Mount Vernon, 9 July 1799]
In the name of God amen I George Washington of Mount Vernon—a citizen of the United States, and lately Pr⟨es⟩ident of the same, do make, ordai⟨n⟩ and declare this Instrument; w⟨hic⟩h is written with my own hand ⟨an⟩d every page thereof subscribed ⟨wit⟩h my name, to be my last Will & ⟨Tes⟩tament, revoking all others.
