Many Tibetan monks used Lotus seeds for their malas
What Is a Mala?
A mala may be known as a beaded necklace which is used by monks to count their breaths, or, more accurately, to maintain focus while meditating.
How Does A Mala Work?
A Mala is a beaded necklace composed of 108 beads, divided into 4 sections. One bead is held between the meditator’s fingers to indicate one entire breath – in and out. After the out breath, the fingers move to the next bead, and the practitioner repeats that process.
This process is the perfect way to maintain focus on the meditation at hand.… When our mind wanders off, our fingers switch to another bead, and we come back to our focus.
The average meditation session lasts about 45 minutes, which accounts for 2 sections of those beads.
Dividing the sections are, “Focus Beads,” which are larger beads- different form the rest in size and texture, to bring the practitioner back to the original focus, or mantra, of the meditation. This is done because the mind easily wanders off and drifts throughout the meditation; so the larger beads remind the meditator to come back to the original focus.
Most meditators cannot sit for an entire session of the 108 beads.
One section is comprised of 27 beads, which usually takes about 27 minutes to get through. Two sections of beads usually equals 45 minutes of meditation.
Many Tibetan monks used Lotus seeds for their malas. Lotus seeds start out as white, and, overtime, they turn black from usage. That being said, anybody wearing a lotus seed mala which is Black is a very, very well conditioned practitioner!
The three bottom beads of the mala have more meaning, which I will describe at a later date.
“I seek you with all my heart; do not let me stray from your commands.”
PSALMS 119:10
-Morning-
Sunday is church day.
I attended church service at the Ocala Farm Ministry this morning. It was a light congregation- smaller than it was a couple of years ago when I had attended. Chaplain Bob was so inviting! His smile was the light of the room!
Before the service began, I wrote about a recent experience. I wrote:
“As I walk in, I observe immediate fear and condemning curiosity. Sinners,scared of the unknown. The one woman prostrated her eyes and averted them, as to not meet mine. She does not want me here, because she is not happy with herself. She sees that I am a Mirror. I am reminded of JAMES 1:22-24.
“Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like someone who looks at his face in a mirror and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like.”
JAMES 1:22-24
My current anger with society is directed at people like she. “Stop it!” is my attitude. “Stop sinning by expressing fear towards me! Stop being scared of the unknown! Yes, fear the Lord; however, God is not, “unknown”. Indeed, we may not see the Lord’s face; but we do KNOW him. Do you have no faith in His son’s message? The anger I observe is not a sin, but is a symptom and an expression of their hidden sins, which they even refuse to admit, (or confess,) to God! (See PSALM 119:6-7.) “ Then I would not be put to shame when I consider all your commands. I will praise you with an upright heart as I learn your righteous laws.”
I remember: “Love the Lord, your God, first, with all your heart; and have no other Gods before me.” “Love the Lord, first…” is the most important commandment! (Even according to Jesus!)”
Church Service Starts.
“Good Morning!” Chaplain Bob greeted us from the pulpit. Then, he quickly corrected himself, “…or ‘good noon’! (he commented on how he was a half an hour late for service today.) He happily proclaimed that, yesterday, he and his wife, Dee, had celebrated thirty-two years of marriage together!
He welcomed me into the congregation, saying, “Chip is here! He studies the Bible a lot and takes a lot of notes. Maybe you will be on his list where he sends blogs and things. Sometimes, I need an interpreter to read it, but,…”. Bob left it at that.
Chaplain went on to proclaim, “If you have no fear of death, what could you fear in life?!?” Then, he asked, “Ronnie, do you have a story for us?”
“I do!” Ronnie answered. He approached the pulpit and embraced Chaplain Bob in a to which Bob responded, “Squeeze a little harder; crack my back!”
Ronnie, wearing white gloves, told how his family had driven him to Walmart to get him some underwear and a pair of Sketchers.
Then, Pastor Doug had a short message for us. He stated that Jesus gave us peace between God and us. Jesus told us to show good will towards men. “Not peace between you and your fellow man, but peace between you and God.”
Doug read from the book of LUKE, chapter 10, verses 30 through 35.
“In reply Jesus said: “A man was going down from Jerusalem to Jericho, when he was attacked by robbers. They stripped him of his clothes, beat him and went away, leaving him half dead. 31 A priest happened to be going down the same road, and when he saw the man, he passed by on the other side. 32 So too, a Levite, when he came to the place and saw him, passed by on the other side. 33 But a Samaritan, as he traveled, came where the man was; and when he saw him, he took pity on him. 34 He went to him and bandaged his wounds, pouring on oil and wine. Then he put the man on his own donkey, brought him to an inn and took care of him. 35 The next day he took out two denarii[a] and gave them to the innkeeper. ‘Look after him,’ he said, ‘and when I return, I will reimburse you for any extra expense you may have.’”
Luke 10:30-25
Pastor Doug explained, “WE are the ones robbing and beating the man who the Good Samaritan helped! Christ is the Good Samaritan- the Redeemer! “We are to forgive others as the Lord has forgiven us!.”
After that, Chaplain Bob made a statement, from which I copied him saying, “You don’t even like me; why should I help you?” This rhetorical question began a thought process for me which was quickly interrupted by paying attention to the next speaker from the pulpit, Dee.
Dee shared how the women’s Bible study was studying the book of REVELATION and cross referencing it, therefore, “owning the knowledge, not just having someone tell us; but we owned it!” Dee referenced how men do not attend the Bible study; yet, when they do, they do not stay long.
This made me curious why this church does not have a Men’s Bible study.
Dee referenced the book of DANIEL, chapter seven, along with MATTHEW 16:14-16 and MATTHEW 12:1-8.
“When Jesus came to the region of Caesarea Philippi, he asked his disciples, “Who do people say the Son of Man is?” They replied, “Some say John the Baptist; others say Elijah; and still others, Jeremiah or one of the prophets.” “But what about you?” he asked. “Who do you say I am?” Simon Peter answered, “You are the Messiah, the Son of the living God.”
Matthew 16:13-16
“At that time Jesus went through the grainfields on the Sabbath. His disciples were hungry and began to pick some heads of grain and eat them. When the Pharisees saw this, they said to him, “Look! Your disciples are doing what is unlawful on the Sabbath.”
He answered, “Haven’t you read what David did when he and his companions were hungry? He entered the house of God, and he and his companions ate the consecrated bread—which was not lawful for them to do, but only for the priests. Or haven’t you read in the Law that the priests on Sabbath duty in the temple desecrate the Sabbath and yet are innocent? I tell you that something greater than the temple is here. If you had known what these words mean, ‘I desire mercy, not sacrifice,’ you would not have condemned the innocent. For the Son of Man is Lord of the Sabbath.”
Matthew 12:1-8
Dee told us, “Our ultimate work in life is to be like Jesus for the rest of the world.” “Jesus seeks to save lost people.”
Then, Rachael, “…had something a little quick.”
“Who is the authority?” She rhetorically asked. “Who do we follow?” She bought up D.O.G.E. and, “The List of Five Things”. “Who are we working for?” Rachael asked the congregation.
I admit, Rachael’s “…a little something quick,” inspired me to continue us writing a piece I have been working on (in my head,) concerning working, “for,” a boss or a company as opposed to doing work for yourself- your own well-being.
She went-on to reference the Ten Commandments and stated, “The first four are between you and God; the last six are between you and man.”
Chaplain Bob took the pulpit again. He spoke how there is always something going on in the world. “There’s always something going on!” Most importantly, he reminded us that, “there is always a way to do the Lord’s work even though you think you have something other to do today.”
He reverenced the book of JOHN 9:1-?…. Then, he told a story of a man watching the attendant who lit the gas street lamps a long, long time ago, telling us that the observer proclaimed,
“Look! He’s punching holes in the darkness!”
Street Observer
Chaplain Bob spoke of ISAIAH, chapter fifty-five. “Without Christ, you live without purpose! You are the walking-dead; you are zombies! …. Distracted to get our next meal!” (Paraphrased)
He reminded us of one of the most powerful messages found in the book of JEREMIAH:
‘You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”
JEREMIAH 29:13
Chaplain Bob then told the story of the man who was blind for thirty years before Jesus restored his sight. To recap his telling of the tale, here, would not do his sermon justice! “Was it worth it? (Being blind all this time to, now, see…) I don’t know!” Bob professed.
One amazing thing Chaplain Bob pointed out was this question: “Was it worth it? …. Being blind for thirty years to come to this moment?” (seeing all of the beautiful colors of the world, etc,…
“What was the first thing he saw? … …. Jesus!
“I was blind; but, now, I see!”
“Changing the human heart toward the miracle of eternity is the most beautiful thing in the world!”
Chaplain Bob Miller
“We are a peculiar people.” Chaplain Bob encouraged us. “Every morning, I wake up, and I thank God!” He happily proclaimed!
“But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.”
1 PETER 2:9
He referenced 2 CORINTHIANS 4:3.
“And even if our gospel is veiled, it is veiled to those who are perishing.”
2 CORINTHIANS 4:3
We held, “The Last Supper,” by humbly and graciously taking communion. Bob recognized the Love Jesus had for His father, even knowing that his own father had condemned him to death. “None of u s will experience that kind of love!” He informed us.
One thing I noticed about today’s service which is different than any other church service I have ever been to in my life is that we did not pass a plate around asking for money. Indeed, tithing is important; but the fact that we did not, today, shows that the Ocala Farm Ministry is separate from most other churches, because most churches focus more on donations than on The Word. The Ocala Farm Ministry is so focused on The Word of God that profit from money is farther from their agenda, so the real work of Jesus does, by deed, reign within the body of the church!
“…I have now determined that the continued redaction and withholding of information from records pertaining to the assassination of President John F. Kennedy is not consistent with the public interest and the release of these records is long overdue. And although no Act of Congress directs the release of information pertaining to the assassinations of Senator Robert F. Kennedy and the Reverend Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr., I have determined that the release of all records in the Federal Government’s possession pertaining to each of those assassinations is also in the public interest….”
President Donald John Trump
“Policy and Purpose. More than 50 years after the assassinations of President John F. Kennedy, Senator Robert F. Kennedy, and the Reverend Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr., the Federal Government has not released to the public all of its records related to those events. Their families and the American people deserve transparency and truth. It is in the national interest to finally release all records related to these assassinations without delay.”
When you confiscate somebody’s wealth, it removes the incentive to become financially successful. (Studies show, the aforementioned is also the resulting product of communism.)
When people become billionaires, they are not stealing your money to get there, and they have no obligation to pay taxes in the first place; so there is no, “pay their fair share; because:
Taxation is theft. When you pay taxes, the government is stealing from you; and you are now angry that a billionaire is not being stolen from at a proportionately equal rate as you! (It’s as if there is some, “Ronin Hood Effect,” where, just because somebody has a lot of money, it’s ok to steal from them!)
Again, people don’t become billionaires by stealing your money; and just because the government is robbing you, that does not mean it is OK to be mad at somebody because they have chosen to not allow the government to rob at a higher rate than it is robbing you! It is like a sheep being mad another sheep for running away from a wolf!
Wearing a jacket with the presidential seal on it is not him acting like an idiot; because he’s not acting at all.
This man, wearing this jacket is just like an actor, wearing a jacket with the presidential seal on it. What functions Robert Ee Niro carried out in his life to dignify him wearing that seal? It is comparable to someone wearing a fake badge or pretending to be something that they are not!
To which industry and in what realm has Robert De Niro dedicated his efforts and time to suggest that he has any direct affiliated with the Oval Office?
When he played mobster roles, we respected him and viewed him as a hard, strong-willed, level-minded tough, scary bad ass!
When we see him speak on television, today, we laugh at him and view him as a weak-willed, mentally imbalanced, frail, pitifully, adolescently humorous hack!
You could come to the conclusion that Robert De Niro appearing publicly wearing a jacket with the presidential seal on it would be foolish, and acting like an idiot,… But… 
“…The souls that are purified, not by the Law but by light, rise to the Heavenly regions, to enjoy there a perfect felicity. Those that persevere in evil go from body to body, the seats of passions and evil desires. …”
If bad people were doing good things, would you stop those good things from happening simply because the people doing those good things are bad people?
I threw a small pumpkin into the compost pile, and, alas! … the gourd hath sprouted!
-Afternoon-
I worked for the next door neighbor all day doing landscaping and the-like.
-Evening-
The pumpkin flourishes; and I embarked upon embellishments to the compost bin. This bin is a prototype, and I am going to build three or more and place them, successively, so that I can turn and alternate the composting material as it develops into a fruitful medium.
A flourishing vegetable and herb garden shall soon begin to take-root!
“…those falsehoods being society’s conditioning of humans to be polite and to pay taxes and to follow certain laws and customs, how we view our interdependencies with our physical environment, along with our political and social assimilations.”
So the people who define “sanity” are the most introverted and insane of the bunch- insane because they think that their town is secure
…I enjoyed the time but was mentally exhausted, (as an introvert,) of having to socialize with people….
Journeyman’s Journal
Saturday February 1, 2025
70°F sunny, nice
15:32 HRS
I went and had lunch with Rebecca today. We met at Cody’s where she introduced me to, her, “work husband,” …. Caleb, I think that;s what his name is; but I know that I am wrong about that. I am sure it starts with a, “C,”.
We had a bland conversation, peppered- over by and uncontainable excitement of not having seen each other at Deleware Park about 22 years!
The expectation to expel the excitement of the other side did not come to fruition, as there simply was not enough time to re-hash, or to make-known exactly how exasperated by happiness we were to be in each other’s company again after all these years!
Everybody projects their best, “self,” out to the rest of the world. We attempt to mold people’s expectations of us according to the fabrications in our heads, (or fabrications of expectations which we deem to exist in other people’s heads about us).
This as a natural instinct in response to the ever-changing minds of the other humans around us. It is a social construct.
Most People are NOT Like Me.
I do not fit into that social construct. I have lost the expectations I had of myself when I was younger; and I have been disappointed, time and time again, when other people do not live-up to their word or change their expectations of me.
Therefore, I have lost, not only the expectations I used to harbor of other people, but I have also relinquished my interests in the former expectations which I had relegated myself to.
Call That A Mid-Life Crisis If You Want, But I Call It An After-Mid-Life-Crisis-Hump!
I have less expectations of myself and nearly zero expectation of other people. When a person has no expectations of himself or the people around him, that person does not respond to other people in the ways which everybody else typically projects their personalities out into the world.
The person of less expectation exercises apathy in a genuine way (“The True, ‘Me’!”).
This way is different from most peoples’, because most people view, “apathy,” simply as being, “un-caring,” or, “not emotionally affected by a situation”.
However, to a person who has experienced trauma repeatedly throughout their lives, their type of, “apathy,” is completely different from the average person’s apathy!
As for the last kid being pointed at and laughed at because he is the last one picked for kick-ball, traumatized people have felt and understand what is going through that kid’s head! Therefore, our apathy is not for the kid who’s picked last, but for the lack of love from those people who have picked the kid last!
They lack love for themselves more than they lack love for others; and that is what I experience apathy for!
I am much different from the finger pointers and those laughers- they who chose the poor kid to be last!
Ironically, for that ^, (their own actions,) I am shunned from their social construct!
Why Aren’t Most People Like Me?
When you do a job better than expectations or do something nice for (certain,) people, (these days,) most People expect you to expect some sort of overly-inflated return for that kindness.
Therefore, it is, now, normal to, “instinctively,” refrain from, “going that extra mile;” or, “lending an extra ear,” to a stranger in need!
For me, apathy has set-in. Survival instinct compels me to suppress my being aware of all of which I am aware of, (dictionary definition of, “cognitive dissonance”).
More and more, as people around me bury their heads in their phones or are so encumbered by all of their time and their spiritual energy being commandeered by their work, do not read the laws which are bing passed right now.
They are not reading the text of the papers which the House of Representatives and the Senate, then, the President are voting into law. …. Does this concern me? …. No. …
It is shit which ends up with me serving you a Shit-Sandwich, butt which is something which I do! Due to the last two sentences, I just said, “do due!”!!!
“Group mentality is the monarchy of the new era, and freedom is the new terrorist against consciousness expansion.”
The only danger we face in life is acceptance of any way other than the way of the individual. As a doormat cannot wipe its own feet on itself, the common man can only be common when he accepts the norm.
Group mentality is the monarchy of the new era, and freedom is the new terrorist against positive consciousness expansion. The way to change reality is to Be the change within one’s own, individual mind.
Chip Van Hassel
We will never convince the people as a group; we can only convince the people by being an example for the group to follow.
To follow the group is to be a lemming, jumping off of the cliff.
To accept the common man's reality is an individual choice to sleep.
To awaken, is the greater energy, tapped-in to by free thought and purposeful action.
Wealth can only be distributed when there is a definition of, “wealth”. Distribution only occurs when there are those who distribute.
Subtract “wealth,” from the equation; and subtract distribution from common man’s mentality, and the true answer becomes screamingly apparent.
Modern man- the evolutionary betrayer.
Individuals who are free thinkers will be ridiculed by their current peers, only to be recognized for their genius long, long after their deaths.
Society is never ready for the truth, but Positive thought is always ready for society.
“…More than 50 years after the assassinations of President John F. Kennedy, Senator Robert F. Kennedy, and the Reverend Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr., the Federal Government has not released to the public all of its records related to those events. Their families and the American people deserve transparency and truth. It is in the national interest to finally release all records related to these assassinations without delay.” -President Donald J. Trump
The more you expect from this world, the less you will receive.
The less you expect from this world, the more you will understand.
-Chip Van Hassel
Friday, January 24, 2025
10:09 HRS
41°F windy, sunny
Out of Few Come Many
Last night was not too cold.
The wind has become less aggressive as the brisk winter-front dusts northern Florida and Louisiana with snow!
Bible Verse:
A pastor once told the congregation to, “Journalize the Bible!” I understood what he meant. I have simply not done that. It does, though, say, in PROVERBS,
“Do not envy the wicked, do not desire their company; for their hearts plot violence, and their lips talk about making trouble. By wisdom a house is built, and through understanding it is established; through knowledge its rooms are filled with rare and beautiful treasures.
The wise prevail through great power, and those who have knowledge muster their strength.
Surely you need guidance to wage war, and victory is won through many advisers.”
Many people in the horse racing business are always plotting; … making trouble! Usually, it is the pencil pushers, the desk jockeys and the clipboard carriers who make the trouble.
The reason they do this is because they are less capable than other people. Indeed, they attempt to surround theirselves with people of lower value, who lack ability, but they cannot find enough similarly incompetent people; so they plot schemes and create a haphazard environment, causing any self-respecting professional to eventually redress grievances. Thereafter, they are labeled as, “The Problem”!
Yes, the person, in this business, who points out faults with the intention of bettering the business, (as a whole,) is always the one pushed, (chased, rather,) out of the barn and treated as a complication and a difficult person, rather than being recognized as a well-thought-out proponent of the vested interests of the entire racing industry as one, whole mechanism!
Every place I have been, (most recently, Kenny McPeek’s,) every time I have put-forth the correct amount of effort to better the product and the industry, my coworkers, and, especially, the assistants and people above me, (including the trainers in many cases,) begin to chastise me and attempt to gaslight and to project upon me; because they do not understand the realm of perfection which I have already experienced, which inspires me to share it with everybody I meet for the rest of my life!
Perfection is frowned upon and shunned!
Kenny McPeek’s assistants even told me, “Yeah, every time I think I’m doing a good job, the next day, I come in, and it feels like I am just waiting to get fired! Every time I put-forth a good effort to make this place better, the people around me freak-out, and it feels like I’m just going to get fired!” (Paraphrased)
Be Advised:
That’s right, after you have been to the top, you begin to think and act differently. Your expectations of the people around you become heightened; therefore, your level of disappointment in your fellow man is heightened in congruency with that raised level of expectation!
The more you expect from this world, the less you will receive. The less you expect from this world, the more you will understand.
Me
On a Different Note:
I have not written poetry in over fifteen years. I used to write pages and pages of it when I was in my teens and early twenties! As my realizations and expectations have changed over time, so has my writing style and my reading preferences. I stay completely away from fiction. I study a lot of history, political history, Masonic shit, religious and philosophical shit as well.
I have come to understand that the Masons are the only ones who truly know history as it actually happened and that the secretes of freemasonry are merely the Truth about reality more than anything. It is not, “ha, ha,” funny that they have collectively, purposely hidden the shape of the world from their neighbors’ children, and even their grandchildren (at this juncture); yet it is funny in a peculiar way!
This, “peculiar way,” is, in fact, their intentionally refusing to know the truth and to purposely push lies that they, themselves, don’t even believe! These people know that they do not know the truth; and they are happier with being aware of their ignorance, in the stead of feeling (self)-discontent for their willful ignorance. This is the result of pure, natural stupidity!
Studies:
I admit that my most recent studies have been comprised of studying graphs of the stock market, trying to see and understand the patterns of the price fluctuations of the stocks.
My buddy, Travis, has turned $150.00 in to $1,600.00 in the last five months; and, if he cashes in 495 shares of PTLE at $14.25, he will have proved a profit of $6,903.75! …. In five months off of a one hundred and fifty dollar investment!!!
I still own 8 shares of PTLE.
I also own 1 shares of DVN, but I am down $36.00, because Robinhood charged $100.00 to transfer my account from them to Fidelity. ACTUALLY, that is a LIE! They did not charge me; what they did was, create a negative $100.00 balance, transfer that negative balance to Fidelity; then, Fidelity charged me that $100.00. …. It is all a scam! I am simply going to wait for the stock to make-up for that loss; at which point, I am going to find a more legitimate way to play the market!
I used AutoPilot to see that Nancy Pelosi purchased one million dollars of stock in Vistra Corp, tempted to buy one share with the last $190.00 I have!
Crazy, isn’t it?!
The plan is to start making money tomorrow and the next day, somehow.
I have been keeping an eye on President Donald Trump’s Executive Actions. I am entertained by the whole, horrifying deal!
If he survives the next four years, it would be a feat of security, vigilance and a testament to how capable and amazing Men are (specifically on the battle-front)!
It was the driver, Bill Greer, shooting a pneumatic pistol with his left hand:
Watch the Driver in the video below!
When Jackie tried to climb out of the back of the car, she stoped and ran away from the secret service member! She turned back around and got back into the limousine and hunched-down on the floor!
“They killed Jack”. She said. “They,” meaning the Secret Service!
Today is going to be another day of mental organization- of writing in my daily planner and notebooks; sticking post-it notes, in procrastination, in specific places in my daily planner. It is going to be an administrative day, of sorts. I am bracing for tonight’s 31 degree weather! Contemplating removing my stuff from storage; but, knowing the money, time and energy involved in such an endeavor, I shall be putting-it-off one, more day, as I have for the last two years!
My complacency has become stagnancy!
It did, though, take me two hours and forty minutes to type what you have just read!
Don Adams Studies:
I was doing some research for my friend, Don Adams. Our research had compelled me to contact the George Washington Presidential Library, requesting a letter written by George Washington Parke Curtis, (President Washington’s step-son,) to Lawrence Lewis, dated, June 20, 1846.
What I want to find in the letter is correspondence regarding Lawrence Lewis’ desire to be relinquished of the responsibility of being one of the only two, surviving executors of President George Washington’s estate.
According to this SOURCE, “…Nearly half a century after Washington’s death, with all of the executors but George Washington Parke Custis dead, no final settlement of the estate had been reached.”
Washington’s Presidential Library responded with the following email; and photos of the letter are below.
“This afternoon, I invested about $23.00, purchasing 8 shares of PLTE and placed a stop limit order to sell at $14.24, getting out just one penny before my buddy, Travis, (who clued-me-in on the stock,)…”
Journeyman’s Journal
Thursday, January 23, 2025
14:45 HRS
48°F windy, cloudy & cold
Day of Waiting the Cold out in Ocala
Spent the night under blankets to survive the thirty-five degree temperature. Woke up well after sunrise; and the wind still blew as it does now, as it did last night.
Tarp Fingers in the Sky!
The flapping of my tarp, overhead, reminds me of a flag made of thin fabric which surfs upon the treacherously wailing wind, waiting to rip and tear, to become tattered to fly as fingers of listless strings, waving irratically in the wind; losing theirselves, piece-by-piece, with every blast of time-intensifying, cold breeze which ravages the woven fabric into martyr-like shreds of disappearing embers into the grey, Florida, winter sky.
Starbucks Oligarchic System Defeat! (POWER UNLOCKED!)
Yesterday, I spent over five hours at Starbucks typing and researching; getting caffeine-high as fuck as the fourth coffee rolled around!
I have defeated their system! …. At Starbucks, after you purchase a coffee, the refill is $0.54. So, I just buy a large and keep paying fifty-four cents for a refill, saving me an average of $15.95 every time I visit!
I suffered quite the headache in the evening as the result of downing five coffees in five hours and not eating a single thing! (That was last night.)
Stock Market Venture
This afternoon, I invested about $23.00, purchasing 8 shares of PLTE and placed a stop limit order to sell at $14.24, getting out just one penny before my buddy, Travis, (who clued-me-in on the stock,) sells his 495 shares! He is convinced that the stock will hit $15.00; but I contend that most people will get out around $11.48. (Don’t ask me why.).
I also placed a limit buy order on VST if the price drops down to $190.00 per share, to buy one share; and the offer expires by 4pm, today; (and it did expire). My intuition tells me to leave all of my money in there and to find a similar stock, such as in companies like: NVIDIA, which is at $146.23 right now. I need to do more stock research.
I got a kick out of watching events at the Oval Office. One of them being this one:
One way these people keep their jobs is by purposely creating a haphazardly difficult environment which chases-away any self-respecting, professional help, leaving you with unskilled, non-dedicated, substandard workforce; and you remove their incentive to become better horsemen and to make the lives of the horses more enjoyable by coercing them to work seven days a week with NEVER a day off; and you pay them as little as possible with no suggestion of a pay-raise as a result of dedication and hard work.
“…The EssENEs were of the Eclectic Sect of Philosophers, and held PLATO in the highest esteem; they believed that true philos-ophy, the greatest and most salutary gift of God to mortals, was scattered, in various portions, through all the different Sects; and that it was, consequently, the duty of every wise man to gather it from the several quarters where it lay dispersed, and to employ it, thus reunited, in destroying the dominion of impiety and vice.”
“God says Pythagoras, “is neither the object of sense, nor subject to passion, but invisible, only intelligible, and supremely intelligent. In His body He is like the light, and in His soul He resembles truth. He is the universal spirit that pervades and dif-fuseth itself over all nature. All beings receive their life from Him. There is but one only God, who is not, as some are apt to imagine, seated above the world, beyond the orb of the Universe; but being Himself all in all, He sees all the beings that fill His immensity; the only Principle, the Light of Heaven, the Father of all. He produces everything; He orders aná disposes every-thing; He is the REASON, the LIFE, and the MoTION of all being.” “
“Then the shadows of a horrible doubt fall upon the soul that would fain love, trust and believe; a darkness, of which this that surrounded you was a symbol. It doubts the truth of Revelation, its own spirituality, the very existence of a beneficent God. It asks itself if it is not idle to hope for any great progress of Humanity toward perfection, and whether, when it advances in one respect, it does not retrogress in some other, by way of compensation: whether advance in civilization is not increase of self-ishness: whether freedom does not necessarily lead to license and anarchy: whether the destitution and debasement of the masses does not inevitably follow increase of population and commercial and manufacturing prosperity. It asks itself whether man is not the sport of a blind, merciless Fate: whether all philosophies are not delusions, and all religions the fantastic creations of human vanity and self-conceit; and, above all, whether, when Reason is abandoned as a guide, the faith of Buddhist and Brahmin has not the same claims to sovereignty and implicit, unreasoning credence, as any other.”
“Thrice blessed are they who never doubt, who ruminate in patient contentment like the kine, or doze under the opiate of a blind faith; on whose souls never rests that Awful Shadow which is the absence of the Divine Light.”
I’ve realized that my true family does not actually Love me, but loves their own complacency as a replacement of that love. Even those who have accepted me and shown me love before have decided to be cold, heartless and ignore me when I communicate. I met a beautiful woman a while back, and she looked at me with Lust in her eyes even though her husband was in the other room, talking to Elli. Days later, that same woman caught me glancing at her open shirt and covered up- annoyed that I had looked, but it was SHE who gave me permission to look at her with lust, because that is what she did to me days before! I’ve learned that that woman is cold, lost and self-involved, too, just like my true family. The truth is: most people do not want to hear the truth. I am a mirror- which is why most people steer clear of me. Even the frog-lickers, the shaman visitors, the Crystal sellers,… they all, connected to the Great Spirit or not,… they ALL avoid me. The place I am in life now is that I’ve finally realized: after all these years (I’m 43;) of people acting uncomfortable around me, speaking to me in a nervous way, acting around me in a nervous way- they all tried to project their mental issues on me- treating me like I am the one who is strange and wrong, and that they are the ones who are normal and correct. … I have come to the place in my life where I recognize that it has NEVER been me and ALWAYS been they who are inadequate, strange and wrong! When my own family who thinks the fact that I am a traveler, that I never stay in one place- my own family treats that as irresponsible, strange, immature; and they think that I am lost. The reality of the matter is that it is they who are irresponsible, strange, immature and lost! My own family is irresponsible, because they blindly believe and do what the television and what the, “government,” tells them to believe and to do. My own family is strange, because they never hugged me when they greeted me, they are scared of true affection. (Maybe, because they lack love for themselves.). My own family is lost, because they have each other, but push me away and tell me I am not welcome in their home, or even in their town. They reach-out for the respect and acceptance of their neighbors and say, “we’ve built a life here…” but their neighbors don’t care about them and don’t know them; and they did not, “build a life;” they merely lived in a house and,… Lived- that is not, “building a life;” that is just staying in one place, never becoming more or doing more for their fellow man. They care only about the three people inside of their houses; and they have unwelcomed me from their houses. The irony is that- it is warriors such as myself who have allowed these weak people to live in such houses. I ate at a restaurant today; and there was no knife on the table. I used my pocket knife. The owner of the place got all nervous and started acting scared and giving me the “side-eye”. I’ve used my knife at restaurants many times before. I’ve gotten the same exact response from people. It’s not me; it is they… It is completely normal for a man to carry a knife. It is not normal for a man to NOT carry a knife. Real men carry a knife, and we use it at least twice a day. They – The nervous people who are scared of a pocket knife- are the stupid ones, not me! The thought never crosses my mind to stab somebody with my knife; however, when people see me using it to cut my food at a restaurant, those idiots think I’m gonna stab somebody… They are the stupid ones; and I am not strange. I am more normal than they even know how to be! Of all of the people who have accepted me, but now, and forever-more, will treat me like I am not normal and that I make them nervous- it is not my doing- it is their own. They have a mental problem; and they are scared of me, because the mirror hides no wrinkles! “Thank You For Letting Me Share.” FYI: Evan is one of those people. Anybody who earns a living by only talking on the phone is a parasite. Those of us who pick up the axe and the shovel- we are the true spirit; whereas the bankers and Relators are the untrue darkness.
“The Scout goes by compass, both morally and navigationally and ventures only to glean the best of the whole. Mankind is dependent on The Scout. Information is The Holy Grail. Clarity is the Treasure! In our Scouts, our Rangers, the young men of the old, Mankind instills its faith.”
-Christopher Van Hassel
MSA
Non Nobis, Domine, non nobis, sed Nomini Tuo da gloriam
“In arrogance, there is great ruin and great instability. In idleness, there is loss and dire poverty, for idleness is the mother of famine.”
Book of Tobit 4:13
“Do not keep with you overnight the wages of those who have worked for you, but pay them at once. … Be on guard, son, in everything you do; be wise in all that you say, and discipline yourself in all your conduct. Do to no man or woman what you hate yourself.”
She is a Lion. There is no middle class anymore. The upper-middle class has diminished to becoming lower-middle class. The medium-middle class no longer exists; therefore, you are either lower-middle class (which is approximately 1% below poverty rate), welfare recipients (who are the coming denominator for the entire, middle class,”, and you have the Upper Class which is comprised of either aristocrats or their offspring. The new, upper class does not earn money via producing a product or providing a service anymore. Their money is not earned income, but capital gains, which are compounding interest payments garnered from stored, uncirculated currency. The amount the upper class spends is calculated to be less than those interest payments, therefore, they never spend the principal; and since the interest is compounded, the principal grows of it’s mere existence, without reinvesting or diversifying. Big chunks of money just sit there to collect interest, and remain uncirculated. In other words, the offspring who is spending the money is not earning it; that money comes from the clouds, into their pockets, and; to collect it, all they have to do is wake up in the morning!
The Lower Class, to collect money, the need to work to earn it. Waking up is the easy part for the blue-collar worker. Collecting the money which belongs to them always seems to be the hard part.
Waking up for a Trust Fund Baby is the easy part, too; but paying the people who work for them seems to be the hard part for them, as well!
It’s called a, “Trust Fund,” it the above is the reason why your paycheck (on a monthly basis,) is approximately $2,600.00 LESS than you need to save, get ahead and live a better quality life. It is not a mistake. There is a reason why the Federal Reserve is going to have to start paddling their canoe in the next four years; and what I just stated above is only part of the reason why! Semper Fidelis!
“You’re smart.. You’re tough. You’re Beautiful. The reason they’re attacking you is because you’re good at your job. …”
When Gaslighting did not work, here is what President Donald Trump said to Sarah Huckabee Sanders:
“You’re smart.. You’re tough. You’re Beautiful. The reason they’re attacking you is because you’re good at your job. …”
Sarah Huckabee Sanders (Repeating encouraging words which President Trump had empowered her with after she had been abused and gaslighted by angry Democrats)
Living the dangerous life, my psyche is always right at home within my own skin whilst dancing in synchronicity with the turmoil in the throws of the Punk-Rock pit.
“…His neurons tend not to carve-out the necessary pathways to the doors- beyond which the candle of truth flickers relentlessly for eternity.”
The Face Which Tries to Look at Itself
A man interprets, “doing the Lord’s work,” as living as the example of compassion and unconditional love. The man knows that, “the ultimate answer,” is to love the Lord above everything else. The man deems the act of loving himself as being the most selfish action a man could possibly undertake. (PROVERBS 16:5) The man, rather, deems that sacrificing himself for the sake of the happiness of others is, “doing the Lord’s work.” The man fails to actively share the love with himself which he yearns to share with others. In order to become the light of God for others, the man must learn to love the one person whom he deems to be most unworthy of such unconditional love!* This man has trained his mind to employ self-sacrifice over self-love. His neurons tend not to carve-out the necessary pathways to the doors- beyond which the candle of truth flickers relentlessly for eternity.
Infinity expands perpetually from one point in all directions.
Example of a Horse Stuck in the Inactive Side of Infinity:
A horse who slow-walks off of the track with the intention of being near other horses who are acting-up, therefore, giving them an excuse to act-up as well.
“Beautiful women do not have to work a day in their life; they simply need to charm a man who makes enough money to keep them both happy.”
Young Women- What They Want
“What is the dilemma with all of these young women being attracted to you?” Charlie asked me.
Lust
“All they want from me is sex, Charlie; … a quick night of passion of animalistic hedonism.”
Charlie smirked at me brightly.
“They are looking for that amazing action which changes their world-view.” I continued. “They are not looking for a husband to commit to or to hold on lonely nights.
We Are Surrounded By Adults Who Think Other Adults Are Authority Figures Over Each Other
The conundrum is that our fellow adults are still inundated by their childish and immature thought processes which guide their actions. Like a Christian yelling at the world to, “Repent!” I find myself screaming on the street corner, wearing a sandwich-board sign that says, “The End Is Near!” … telling my fellow man that we are all doomed to suffering and failure if we all do not collectively change our ways!
Society seems leery and scared of me. It is as if, if I genuinely be myself, people would look at me like I was dangerous and crazy.
The fact of the matter is that they are scared of their own realization of failure, that they purposely and actively deplete the value of their fellow man in order to maintain a dysfunctional status quo, therefore, lowering the worldly standard, making it easier to live at whatever quality of life they deem to be satisfactory.
We are all simply practicing, “the art of being ourselves!”
The Second Library
I used to scribe allegories all the time. In fact, I view human interaction in an allegorical sense. This inspired creative neurons to establish pathways throughout my brain. I wrote a lot of poetry and philosophical work.
I viewed the world as an artist does and interacted with it in an, “eccentric,” way.
As the Catholic Church has provenly been regarded as a citadel for pedophilia, the Pope heads that organization; and the majority of the world’s money kisses that ring most closely by way of sticking it’s globe of a head up the Pope’s ass, as so to give that unclean ass the most French of kisses!
I remember, when I was in high school, sitting alone in the snow behind Noah’s parents’ Isuzu Trooper, which had a “Free Tibet,” bumper sticker on it, drinking a bottle of Jim Beam whiskey.
In an overly-sexualized culture, there exists an air(e) of, “active-passive aggression,” which could be described as building(/being) the bridge upon which, “resting bitch face,” hath transmuted into, “active-bitch-face,”. This (invisible) force is a subconscious reaction to self-loathing. The catalyst of this paradigm is not conscientiously explored by the the common man. Most people are unaware
Yes, God has made me poor in the pocketbook but wealthy in spirit.
Some Visible Ghost Nibbles
The culture we live in seems strange and weak. People peer around and find everything to be strange while applying a weak predisposition; … scared, they are! People seem angry in a curious way; and people seem curious in an angry way.
Men look at me angrily- a self-hating mechanism. They are angry at the unknown, jealous imagination of me.
If there comes a time when you resent your teacher, you have become your own teacher; and you must relinquish your expectations of such former teacher.
Resentment is the product of contempt and the ego; both of which are cataclysms.
After contempt for a teaching ha been acknowledged, the ego presents itself. Regardless of the validity of the ego’s claim, the added contempt limits your judgement, creating learning barriers.
“…. Finding out that someone you know is a Freemason used to be a later step in developing a personal relationship with them; NEVER the opening of a friendship with somebody whom you have just met!
This juxtaposition has completely corrupted the Craft! …”
What is Different about Freemasonry Today?
The Freemasonic attitude towards his fellow man has changed from Fear of a Greater Power to an Ego-based display of stupidity! Why do I say that?
“there is no magical moment which makes everything change.”
There is No Cosmic Click.
Most people are seeking for that moment where it all, “clicks,” and everything, all of the sudden, makes sense and is correct, not realizing that there is no magical moment which makes everything change. (It’s all turtles!”)
Went from being on top of the world and having a defined future back to being all alone and desolate in three days. I’m not a cry baby. Sometimes, I feel I deserve better, but I am humble to understand that it has
The “Answer,” one seeks is more simple than the question asked.
Are You Troubled?
As we seek council to acquire clarity amongst our confusion, the only true clarity we find can be described as a love for one’s self.
Seeking the answer from an outside source seems ludicrous after the fact, because the answer is accepted from inside our own heart, beaming-outwardly, not from the outside of our body, beaming-inwardly!
The “Answer,” one seeks is more simple than the question asked.
“Culture is missing the Grand Power of Motivation towards the unknown- that physical action of advancing towards fear, pushing ourselves to our limits, so we may therefore push ourselves beyond those limits to create more advantageous precipices from which thereupon, we we may elevate our efforts; for we are rewarded with the strength, courage and some wisdom which allows us to experience the Great Power of Motivation which operates the Sun and the Moon.”
Make the aura around you flow of purple water- It’s current- Strong, Revolutionary of itself. When you notice that your focus has been lost Breathe-In Moderately-Controlled down through your Sacral Chakra, Circulating the inside of the chakra; condensing it’s outer physical membrane.
When an intellectual conversation dissolves into a self-loathing proclamation…
“The Answer,” they seek cannot materialize. Instead, the, “investigation,” becomes a self-exploration, describing the whole of humanity, fueled by pent-up emotion (which they want to share,) consequently being extinguished by the arrogant affect of being the observer attempting to objectively observe itself. As a picture of a pencil cannot draw itself, the human attempting to reconcile with its own cognitive dissonance by way of cognition is the same as the ocean attempting to dry itself off by splashing around!
“If I bear witness of myself, my witness is not true.
There is another who testifies in my favor, and I know that his testimony about me is true.”
JOHN 5:31-32
Of a man who chooses not to see the light, neither all the books in the world may enlighten him; and for a man who sees the light, a single word is too much! As we are surrounded by (and ruled by,) self-deceiving people, the only recompense is to constantly and instantly forgive them.
Be an example of the Great Light which shineth from above.
Manifesting the Horse’s power into my hands as Peace. Even muscle strain is peace and is void of conflict. Breath for peace. The monk, always at peace, keeps a clear mind, so he can react and act without judgement. –
“We are going to pretend to be offering you free health insurance and free rent, (on paper;) however, you will be earning much less than originally agreed to.”
Indentured Servitude
The Ol’, “Bait and Switch”
Two Steps:
#1. Bait:
“We love the work you’ve done for us! We will pay you $650.00 a week on a 1099 basis; and housing is included with the job.”
Which training method did Jonathan Sheppard employ?
When somebody complained how Jonathan Sheppard would never explain his training program to them, this was my response:
Well, some of us understood his training program which was essentially reverse-engineered in congruency with the horse’s running date, its condition, the competition it would be up against, along with the expectations of its upcoming performance while always keeping the race AFTER that performance in mind.
George Washington’s Last Will and Testament [Mount Vernon, 9 July 1799]
In the name of God amen I George Washington of Mount Vernon—a citizen of the United States, and lately Pr⟨es⟩ident of the same, do make, ordai⟨n⟩ and declare this Instrument; w⟨hic⟩h is written with my own hand ⟨an⟩d every page thereof subscribed ⟨wit⟩h my name, to be my last Will & ⟨Tes⟩tament, revoking all others.
Now I know my
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