These people do not like me, because I do what the boss would want done when the boss is not around!
The Bullshit I Put Up With
I do what the boss would want done when the boss is not around. That is why coworkers do not like me. I am a guy who, “pulls the wooden shoe out of the cogs of the gear.”
The Lazy Racetracker
Nobody wants the boss or the boss’s son around all the time; and the Lazy Racetracker wants a promotion for doing nothing.
“…those falsehoods being society’s conditioning of humans to be polite and to pay taxes and to follow certain laws and customs, how we view our interdependencies with our physical environment, along with our political and social assimilations.”
So the people who define “sanity” are the most introverted and insane of the bunch- insane because they think that their town is secure
How do we re-learn those things which our grandparents had never been taught?
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“…there are fewer and fewer students of the game anymore.
Journeyman’s Journal
October 21, 2025
…And the People Went Insane!
The difference between the world today and the world we grow up in is not definable. We cannot put our finger on what is different or why; but we all know that collective consciousness has changed.
It is not a shift!
Do not call it a, “shift,” because the road and also the vehicle are all different animals, today, altogether!
Emotions are indicators for regulation, not controllers of action.
Emotional Regulation:
Anger = Multiple Feelings:
Sad
Fear
Guilt
Show Up At Peace With Ourselves.
Recognize the emotion.
Evaluate the body.
Reevaluate the thoughts.
Make Physical adjustment to process your emotions; to be at (inner) peace BREATHE deeply and controlled.
Anger Exists From Perception.
Develop the qualities of a peace maker:
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2.
3.
Emotional Maturity = Acceptance.
Flexible Thinking:
Growing Emotionally Mature Is A Process.
Start with the physical body before you may calm down.
Focus on breathing and muscular tension.
Emotions are indicators for regulation, not controllers of action.
Find your anchors
When you are experiencing the painful emotions of grief, one way to cope is to find an anchor to ground yourself. This can be as simple as focusing on your breathing and slowing it down slightly. Or bringing your awareness to something external in your environment—this could be the tea cup in front of you or a tree in the garden—and then describing to yourself all the details of that scene: what you see, what you hear, the colors, the textures, etc.
A “Transitional Person is: “A person who breaks unhealthy, harmful, abusive or unfortunate learned behaviors and replaces them with proactive, helpful, effective behaviors. This person models positive behaviors and passes on effective habits that strengthen and build others in positive ways.”
I held back the tears,
washing that dish,
Knowing that those eyes would soon
shimmer no more upon me;
Glimmer no more in my sight;
Blink neither a tear of sorrow with me,
Nor open in excitement at me!
Leah’s eyes – They shine and glimmer as if two stars from Orion’s Belt have escaped their constellation to take throne upon the most beautiful place known to the universe!
“I seek you with all my heart; do not let me stray from your commands.”
PSALMS 119:10
-Morning-
Sunday is church day.
I attended church service at the Ocala Farm Ministry this morning. It was a light congregation- smaller than it was a couple of years ago when I had attended. Chaplain Bob was so inviting! His smile was the light of the room!
Before the service began, I wrote about a recent experience. I wrote:
“As I walk in, I observe immediate fear and condemning curiosity. Sinners,scared of the unknown. The one woman prostrated her eyes and averted them, as to not meet mine. She does not want me here, because she is not happy with herself. She sees that I am a Mirror. I am reminded of JAMES 1:22-24.
“Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like someone who looks at his face in a mirror and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like.”
JAMES 1:22-24
My current anger with society is directed at people like she. “Stop it!” is my attitude. “Stop sinning by expressing fear towards me! Stop being scared of the unknown! Yes, fear the Lord; however, God is not, “unknown”. Indeed, we may not see the Lord’s face; but we do KNOW him. Do you have no faith in His son’s message? The anger I observe is not a sin, but is a symptom and an expression of their hidden sins, which they even refuse to admit, (or confess,) to God! (See PSALM 119:6-7.) “ Then I would not be put to shame when I consider all your commands. I will praise you with an upright heart as I learn your righteous laws.”
I remember: “Love the Lord, your God, first, with all your heart; and have no other Gods before me.” “Love the Lord, first…” is the most important commandment! (Even according to Jesus!)”
Church Service Starts.
“Good Morning!” Chaplain Bob greeted us from the pulpit. Then, he quickly corrected himself, “…or ‘good noon’! (he commented on how he was a half an hour late for service today.) He happily proclaimed that, yesterday, he and his wife, Dee, had celebrated thirty-two years of marriage together!
He welcomed me into the congregation, saying, “Chip is here! He studies the Bible a lot and takes a lot of notes. Maybe you will be on his list where he sends blogs and things. Sometimes, I need an interpreter to read it, but,…”. Bob left it at that.
Chaplain went on to proclaim, “If you have no fear of death, what could you fear in life?!?” Then, he asked, “Ronnie, do you have a story for us?”
“I do!” Ronnie answered. He approached the pulpit and embraced Chaplain Bob in a to which Bob responded, “Squeeze a little harder; crack my back!”
Ronnie, wearing white gloves, told how his family had driven him to Walmart to get him some underwear and a pair of Sketchers.
Then, Pastor Doug had a short message for us. He stated that Jesus gave us peace between God and us. Jesus told us to show good will towards men. “Not peace between you and your fellow man, but peace between you and God.”
Doug read from the book of LUKE, chapter 10, verses 30 through 35.
“In reply Jesus said: “A man was going down from Jerusalem to Jericho, when he was attacked by robbers. They stripped him of his clothes, beat him and went away, leaving him half dead. 31 A priest happened to be going down the same road, and when he saw the man, he passed by on the other side. 32 So too, a Levite, when he came to the place and saw him, passed by on the other side. 33 But a Samaritan, as he traveled, came where the man was; and when he saw him, he took pity on him. 34 He went to him and bandaged his wounds, pouring on oil and wine. Then he put the man on his own donkey, brought him to an inn and took care of him. 35 The next day he took out two denarii[a] and gave them to the innkeeper. ‘Look after him,’ he said, ‘and when I return, I will reimburse you for any extra expense you may have.’”
Luke 10:30-25
Pastor Doug explained, “WE are the ones robbing and beating the man who the Good Samaritan helped! Christ is the Good Samaritan- the Redeemer! “We are to forgive others as the Lord has forgiven us!.”
After that, Chaplain Bob made a statement, from which I copied him saying, “You don’t even like me; why should I help you?” This rhetorical question began a thought process for me which was quickly interrupted by paying attention to the next speaker from the pulpit, Dee.
Dee shared how the women’s Bible study was studying the book of REVELATION and cross referencing it, therefore, “owning the knowledge, not just having someone tell us; but we owned it!” Dee referenced how men do not attend the Bible study; yet, when they do, they do not stay long.
This made me curious why this church does not have a Men’s Bible study.
Dee referenced the book of DANIEL, chapter seven, along with MATTHEW 16:14-16 and MATTHEW 12:1-8.
“When Jesus came to the region of Caesarea Philippi, he asked his disciples, “Who do people say the Son of Man is?” They replied, “Some say John the Baptist; others say Elijah; and still others, Jeremiah or one of the prophets.” “But what about you?” he asked. “Who do you say I am?” Simon Peter answered, “You are the Messiah, the Son of the living God.”
Matthew 16:13-16
“At that time Jesus went through the grainfields on the Sabbath. His disciples were hungry and began to pick some heads of grain and eat them. When the Pharisees saw this, they said to him, “Look! Your disciples are doing what is unlawful on the Sabbath.”
He answered, “Haven’t you read what David did when he and his companions were hungry? He entered the house of God, and he and his companions ate the consecrated bread—which was not lawful for them to do, but only for the priests. Or haven’t you read in the Law that the priests on Sabbath duty in the temple desecrate the Sabbath and yet are innocent? I tell you that something greater than the temple is here. If you had known what these words mean, ‘I desire mercy, not sacrifice,’ you would not have condemned the innocent. For the Son of Man is Lord of the Sabbath.”
Matthew 12:1-8
Dee told us, “Our ultimate work in life is to be like Jesus for the rest of the world.” “Jesus seeks to save lost people.”
Then, Rachael, “…had something a little quick.”
“Who is the authority?” She rhetorically asked. “Who do we follow?” She bought up D.O.G.E. and, “The List of Five Things”. “Who are we working for?” Rachael asked the congregation.
I admit, Rachael’s “…a little something quick,” inspired me to continue us writing a piece I have been working on (in my head,) concerning working, “for,” a boss or a company as opposed to doing work for yourself- your own well-being.
She went-on to reference the Ten Commandments and stated, “The first four are between you and God; the last six are between you and man.”
Chaplain Bob took the pulpit again. He spoke how there is always something going on in the world. “There’s always something going on!” Most importantly, he reminded us that, “there is always a way to do the Lord’s work even though you think you have something other to do today.”
He reverenced the book of JOHN 9:1-?…. Then, he told a story of a man watching the attendant who lit the gas street lamps a long, long time ago, telling us that the observer proclaimed,
“Look! He’s punching holes in the darkness!”
Street Observer
Chaplain Bob spoke of ISAIAH, chapter fifty-five. “Without Christ, you live without purpose! You are the walking-dead; you are zombies! …. Distracted to get our next meal!” (Paraphrased)
He reminded us of one of the most powerful messages found in the book of JEREMIAH:
‘You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”
JEREMIAH 29:13
Chaplain Bob then told the story of the man who was blind for thirty years before Jesus restored his sight. To recap his telling of the tale, here, would not do his sermon justice! “Was it worth it? (Being blind all this time to, now, see…) I don’t know!” Bob professed.
One amazing thing Chaplain Bob pointed out was this question: “Was it worth it? …. Being blind for thirty years to come to this moment?” (seeing all of the beautiful colors of the world, etc,…
“What was the first thing he saw? … …. Jesus!
“I was blind; but, now, I see!”
“Changing the human heart toward the miracle of eternity is the most beautiful thing in the world!”
Chaplain Bob Miller
“We are a peculiar people.” Chaplain Bob encouraged us. “Every morning, I wake up, and I thank God!” He happily proclaimed!
“But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.”
1 PETER 2:9
He referenced 2 CORINTHIANS 4:3.
“And even if our gospel is veiled, it is veiled to those who are perishing.”
2 CORINTHIANS 4:3
We held, “The Last Supper,” by humbly and graciously taking communion. Bob recognized the Love Jesus had for His father, even knowing that his own father had condemned him to death. “None of u s will experience that kind of love!” He informed us.
One thing I noticed about today’s service which is different than any other church service I have ever been to in my life is that we did not pass a plate around asking for money. Indeed, tithing is important; but the fact that we did not, today, shows that the Ocala Farm Ministry is separate from most other churches, because most churches focus more on donations than on The Word. The Ocala Farm Ministry is so focused on The Word of God that profit from money is farther from their agenda, so the real work of Jesus does, by deed, reign within the body of the church!
Wearing a jacket with the presidential seal on it is not him acting like an idiot; because he’s not acting at all.
This man, wearing this jacket is just like an actor, wearing a jacket with the presidential seal on it. What functions Robert Ee Niro carried out in his life to dignify him wearing that seal? It is comparable to someone wearing a fake badge or pretending to be something that they are not!
To which industry and in what realm has Robert De Niro dedicated his efforts and time to suggest that he has any direct affiliated with the Oval Office?
When he played mobster roles, we respected him and viewed him as a hard, strong-willed, level-minded tough, scary bad ass!
When we see him speak on television, today, we laugh at him and view him as a weak-willed, mentally imbalanced, frail, pitifully, adolescently humorous hack!
You could come to the conclusion that Robert De Niro appearing publicly wearing a jacket with the presidential seal on it would be foolish, and acting like an idiot,… But… 
“You’re smart.. You’re tough. You’re Beautiful. The reason they’re attacking you is because you’re good at your job. …”
When Gaslighting did not work, here is what President Donald Trump said to Sarah Huckabee Sanders:
“You’re smart.. You’re tough. You’re Beautiful. The reason they’re attacking you is because you’re good at your job. …”
Sarah Huckabee Sanders (Repeating encouraging words which President Trump had empowered her with after she had been abused and gaslighted by angry Democrats)
“Learn to remain silent in moments of greatest turbulence: Mental Peace and Patience are your best allies during crises. Conquering these attributes is part of your spiritual evolution.
“there is no magical moment which makes everything change.”
There is No Cosmic Click.
Most people are seeking for that moment where it all, “clicks,” and everything, all of the sudden, makes sense and is correct, not realizing that there is no magical moment which makes everything change. (It’s all turtles!”)
When an intellectual conversation dissolves into a self-loathing proclamation…
“The Answer,” they seek cannot materialize. Instead, the, “investigation,” becomes a self-exploration, describing the whole of humanity, fueled by pent-up emotion (which they want to share,) consequently being extinguished by the arrogant affect of being the observer attempting to objectively observe itself. As a picture of a pencil cannot draw itself, the human attempting to reconcile with its own cognitive dissonance by way of cognition is the same as the ocean attempting to dry itself off by splashing around!
They are curious about me, not because they want to show interest and compassion, however the opposite: they want to quell their fear caused by their confused assumptions.
“The highly sensitive tend to be philosophical or spiritual in their orientation, rather than materialistic or hedonistic. They dislike small talk. They often describe themselves as creative or intuitive. They dream vividly, and can often recall their dreams the next day. They love music, nature, art, physical beauty. They feel exceptionally strong emotions–sometimes acute bouts of joy, but also sorrow, melancholy, and fear. Highly sensitive people also process information about their environments–both physical and emotional–unusually deeply. They tend to notice subtleties that others miss–another person’s shift in mood, say, or a lightbulb burning a touch too brightly.”
Susan Cain
(Art: Photograph by Louis Fleckenstein)
(From the book: Quiet: The Power of Introverts in a World That Can’t Stop Talking)
“’Cus used to get turned on when I told him that I was afraid and I might be a coward. He loved that. He knew that would feed into my fear base and he worked everything off fear. Cus wanted you to react like a robot so that when he said something, you’d do it on command. Cus showed me the difference between fear and intimidation. Being intimidated prevents you from performing at the highest level you’re capable of. But fear can help you ascend to great heights. ‘Be afraid of your opponent personally but don’t be afraid to hurt him,’ he told me. What people don’t realize is that when controlled properly fear can take you to a level of euphoria where you believe you’re invincible. Very few people can get to that level. But when you do, a weird aberration of nature takes place and you’re sent to a level of invincible proportion.’”
… the pitiful people who gravitate towards me, attempting to live vicariously through me. Like the man sitting next to me right now. He keeps humming and making noises with his mouth in an attempt to rape attention from those around him; but this raping moment, for him, is to butt-fuck the shit out of my serene peace, quiet and enjoyable company and state.
“There are two ways of telling your story. One is to tell it compulsively and urgently, keep returning to it because you see your present suffering as the result of your past experiences.
But there is another way.
You can tell your story from the place where it no longer dominates you. You can speak about it with a certain distance and see it as the way to your present freedom.”
“… small amounts of THC can also be found in hemp. The government regulates concentration levels at 0.3 percent (dry weight) for “industrial hemp” products, resulting in very limited cerebral stimulation.”
“…Nietzsche and Jung on the three metamorphoses of the spirit.
There is a passage in ‘Thus Spoke Zarathustra’ in which Friedrich Nietzsche describes the spiritual evolution of man from childhood to old age.
He begins the passage by showing how a child spends his first years as a collector of duties, traumas and the word ‘No’, and how he resembles that of a camel, a beast of burden who must carry whatever is thrown onto its back.
Some people use the silent treatment as a tool for exerting power over someone or creating emotional distance. … People who use the silent treatment as a means of control want to
“Transitional People transcend their own needs and tap into the deepest, most noble impulses of human nature. …
…these responses are the synthesis through which we all experience each other…”
Today, The World NEEDS Transitional People.
What is a, “Transitional Person”?
According to Enkindle Wellness, a, “Transitional Person is: “A person who breaks unhealthy, harmful, abusive or unfortunate learned behaviors and replaces them with proactive, helpful, effective behaviors. This person models positive behaviors and passes on effective habits that strengthen and build others in positive ways.”
“My common-core disgust had been skewed to a a new side. This disgust for people’s meanderings, never disheveled, (this core-disgust,) but always evolving, a metamorphosis from disgust to utter disgust permeated all emotional plateaus which created another level of judgement of my fellow man.
Not that it helped anything or made anything worse, however, became a conspiracy of sorts between the Mental State which I had worked so hard over the years to achieve and the positive Psyche which was the ablative of means by which I had arrived at that mental state (on it’s continuous level).”
Definition: 1. An Alert to observe the timeline to keep the story straight so that the lie seems true. 2. The timeframe in which the truth must not be filmed, recorded or documented. 3. An alert to turn off all cameras, because if the Location where they say there is an “active shooter” is filmed, there is proof that there was nobody shooting anybody at all.
Ignoring someone is not an act of love. In fact, it qualifies as abuse
Is someone’s Ignoring You a Form Of Abuse? YES.
Some people use the silent treatment as a tool for exerting power over someone or creating emotional distance. … People who use the silent treatment as a means of control want to
“Let Go of any reigns which are not currently in your hands!”
Expecting the Impossible
“A Trainer can give enough instructions to paralyze the rider.” The best way to find synchronicity is to Trust, To Allow and to Let Go of any reigns which are not currently in your hands.
Chip Van Hassel
Many trainers expect perfection every second, every step. Elephants poop in the room whilst perfection is only witnessed briefly in moments displayed as result of training and effort towards the delayed gratification of raising to the next degree.
Chip Van Hassel
Too much is too much.
Perfection occurs only throughout humble circumstance.
Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
“Pity disarms us and makes us vulnerable to exploitation. Preying on our sympathy, our conscientiousness and empathy is a common maneuver for conscienceless, sophisticated and covert manipulators because it enables them to get past our defenses. It appeals to the part of us that wants to help, nurture and nurse these individuals back to emotional health.”
Some people use the silent treatment as a tool for exerting power over someone or creating emotional distance. … People who use the silent treatment as a means of control want to
